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Ben Gunn
old m Soc Rep of Leeds UK

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    Mood: sick and tired

    Posted on 2010-03-13 18:28:09



    Mood: clinically,physically,mentally unstable.

    Posted on 2010-02-20 03:32:49

       Boldly entering a new year more pessimistic than ever. If that's possible. Lower than nothing. Flatter than a flatline. Flattery doesn't charge my battery. My bullsh1t detector is pointing at me, and it is wailing it's heart out. I'm off the radar, I'm off on a tangent, Missing Inaction. Missed? not likely...

    What I am...

    Mood: the moody blues

    Posted on 2007-05-02 15:55:55

       I want to have my cake and eat it,
    Fuck the system I want to beat it,
    Show me the way, I'll take a short cut,
    Whilst busily shooting myself in the foot.



    Mood: Sigh...

    Posted on 2007-04-03 18:58:11

        You don't get it, do you?
    I can't water it down -
    Can't dilute what drives me
    to write, or I will drown.

    It's in me, it IS me -
    and has been for so long
    that trying to ignore it
    makes it twice as strong.

    I can't take it away,
    nor make it nicer to read,
    any more than I could ever,
    kill the f*cking need.

    It's there forever, regardless -
    accept, ignore or disagree.
    & I can't change it anymore,
    than I could



    Mood: Yeay!!

    Posted on 2007-03-28 11:23:01

       If 500 monkeys on 500 PC's,
    could eventually knock out a Shakespeare with ease,
    could a monkeys uncle with a rollerball pen,
    ever write something half-decent again?



    Mood: customized

    Posted on 2007-03-20 14:10:58


    My faith in the human race has been somewhat restored recently, so don't be the fucker that bums me out or lets me down? ok?

    Big responsibility, I know, but try - that's all I ask...



    Mood: Rant

    Posted on 2007-03-15 23:21:18

       Listen to ; 10 in 01 by Members of Mayday when taking e's
    or shit loads of speed.
    Miss Halfway by Anya Marina when coming down, chilling or gauching.
    EZ Pass by Har Mar Superstar when snorting ket or coke.
    Or just go to bed on the normal bag of doctor pills you get given when you're my age.
    Oh, don't forget Are You Experienced by Jimi Hendrix if you're peaking on shit hot acid.

    Move over rover, and let Jimi take over.

    Stimulation not Intoxication. Freedom of information is freedom of choice. Don't put up with smoking shit pot or drinking all day, 'cos that's what they all want you to do. Nice and docile - or killing yourselves or each other. Makes their job easier. The bastards.

    Strive to survive causing least suffering possible.

    Peace and love and stuff.

    Ben Gunn.



    Mood: Misanthropic

    Posted on 2007-03-14 15:44:22

       Some of the people on here are either;
    a) certifiable
    b) delusional
    or c) cretinous.

    Cheers to all the others, you make it worthwhile.





    Mood: Hopeful but realistic.

    Posted on 2007-03-10 17:54:22

       30 mgs of mirtazapine still, but 20 mgs of diazepam thrown in for good measure - 16 mg of buprenorphine ends the proper chemical hammering. plus lots of boring crap for various other ailments.

    Still abstaining from my great love of Amphetamines, as well as hallucinogenics and the various forms of MDMA.

    It's been tough, but no-one said it would be a theme park. The hardest has been the speed; as I'd kinda got into the mindset that I couldn't create without veins full of phet. I know this not to be true. ish.

    If anyone needs any listening recommendations, then there's Harvest by Neil Young (album) Miss Halfway by Anya Marina (single - and one of the best songs I've heard for 3 or 4 years ) and Same Jeans by The View.

    More reading, viewing and listening can be recommended upon request.

    Hope you are all as happy as you deserve to be.




    Feb 2007

    Mood: 30 mg of Mirtazapine

    Posted on 2007-01-30 18:32:58

       Came back to write a bit, Comment a bit.

    Nice to see there a still some pleasant people about.

    But remember. It doesn't always turn out right.

    So don't rely on it to.