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Mood: The Usual
Posted on 2012-03-13 21:04:18
Stop the world today, I'd like to get off.
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meh?
Mood: The Usual
Posted on 2012-03-06 21:49:59
I guess I just feel like writing here. Lately, I've been bombarded by feelings on the sides of dozens of different people. It's been overwhelming in some regards. I've never been surrounded by such politically minded ones.
But just to make it clear to myself, I'm not a liberal and I'm not a conservative. As odd as it may sound to anybody else, I'm strongly for gay rights and strongly against abortions. Gay rights are ways that living people embrace life, it's the natural way they are. But saying that women can't kill the person growing in them is an invasion of privacy goes too far for me.
I recently saw a picture that disgusted me. It was an image of children born into poverty, captioned with a phrase about how many kids are born poor which could have been prevented by abortion. I also recently heard a statistic about how crime rates have lowered in many areas since the legalization of abortion. So these kids are better killed than poor? Only the rich should reproduce? If being poor is worse than death, maybe we should just bomb poverty stricken areas.
People always say that abortion is an intrusion in a woman's reproductive health. It violates her rights, she should have the right to choose. But other than in cases of rape, she already made her decision. She doesn't have the right to end her child's life because that life is inconvenient. And no matter how wrong anybody thinks that might be, it's what I believe.
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I has a journal
Mood: The Usual
Posted on 2012-03-04 22:50:31
Dood, I've completely forgotten I could write a journal on this site. However, I've gotten back into writing poetry a lot. Why do I do that?
Anyway, garsh it's been a long time since I signed up here.
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D:
Mood: The Usual
Posted on 2008-01-29 15:37:43
Never mind. that guys is a jerk too
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ehh
Mood: The Usual
Posted on 2008-01-20 19:56:11
Life sucks balls.
Seriously.
Me ex is being suck a fucking jackass. Five fucking minutes after his damn girlfriend dumps him, hes back in my lap telling me how much he loves me.
I hate him. Seriously.
I haven't even talked to this guy for a fucking month. At least a month even. And now hes all telling me how depressed he is and how he misses me. He thinks that I should give him another chance.
I wish he would just leave me alone. x.x
But, I'm talking to my boyfriend now, which I guess is good. I'm kind of paranoid of guys though, which I should hope is understandable as of late.
I have stopped talking to my other ex because I pretty much hate his guts. Guys generally suck.
I think my bf may be the only exeption...
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ARG
Mood: The Usual
Posted on 2008-01-14 21:33:59
Don't you just hate it when you hate somebody and love them at the same time??? x.x
GGRRR.
It makes things so complicated. Which is okay.
I guess.
I've pretty much decided that I don't really give a fuck about what happens to me anymore. Because it doesn't really matter! The doctors aren't going to fix me, because pills can't keep people from being totally fucked up.
I don't think my poetry has ever been more depressing. Which sucks, because at this point poetry is one of the only things that matters to me.  /
I love rambling. It makes me feel so important. Damnit, now I feel all pathetic again.
OOOH I get new medicine soon. HAHAHA. I'm sure THAT will help. Just like the last SIX helped. I have to write a list of reasons for cutting for my therapist.
How the hell am I supposed to write that?
"I hate myself, I'm pissed off, I hate other people"???
I mean, really. x.x
I'm not even quite sure why I'm writing this in the first place.
Oh, right, venting. xD
So, I have a boyfriend. I just hope I can trust this one. I hope so. I don't know if I can stand another heartbreak. Maybe I just shouldn't get to close to him?? GRRR But I like him a lot.
But it seems that all the guys I like are clinically insane. At least. Or they're just perverted.
I am too easily taken. That is definitely one thing I hate about myself.
I'm so fucking pathetic. My therapist asked me to list some things I like about myself. I couldn't name one.
Then she asked me to list some things I couldn't stand about myself. A VERY long list.
ARG. I fail at self confidence. Even the therapist says I have a sad existance. x.x
I don't even feel like eating chocolate. =[
GRR WRITING IN A JOURNAL DOESN'T MAKE ME FEEL BETTER, IT MAKES ME FEEL WORSE.
This isn't a release, its a build up of feeling, still inside me somewhere. x.x
I don't even know HOW to release emotion in a "healthy" way. Why do people even care if I cut? Its my body, I should be able to do what I want with it. I mean really...
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x.x
Mood: The Usual
Posted on 2008-01-09 20:33:06
I hate my life.
Why? I have no idea.
Maybe its because of all these fucking doctors who tell me that I'm going to get better if I take those stupid pills. They aren't magic.
They've only made me worse so far.
I hate it.
God damn why am I even writing this?
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Go Die
Mood: The Usual
Posted on 2008-01-08 13:45:21
Yeah.
The last few weeks have sucked. They shouldn't have. But they did. I won, I should be happy now.
I'm not.
What the fuck is wrong with me?
Its like I don't know how or why to care.
Its like I can't.
Its like I don't even want to.
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fjeiowafjla;
Mood: The Usual
Posted on 2007-12-28 08:34:46
Meh. Christmas was fun, but things have been so fucking boring lately.
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so jah
Mood: The Usual
Posted on 2007-12-21 21:35:28
today was kind of sad, but kind of happy.
its a week til i get to see everybody.
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