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Jeni Alynn
27 ~ Louisiana

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    Mood: Yeay!!

    Posted on 2010-02-27 00:05:36

       So glad we're back in touch Justin :)


    Mood: Yeay!!

    Posted on 2007-11-28 19:14:19

       Well ladies and gents, I haven't submitted anything or checked anything out on our great site here in a loooong time. But I would like to start writing again. I recently decided it was time to let a great love of mine go, so that will surely invoke some inspiration to write. It's been over between us for a long time but I just wasn't ready to let go. Now it's time to clean out my heart so I can start fresh.

    And going right along with starting fresh, I have a new job. I already have a job, this is like a side job. But it is something that I have always wanted to do and I am so happy to have it! I'm working at a little book store.... today is actually my first day. Right now there is a belly dancing class going on in a side room... hehe we're not just about books... so it's kinda slow. I'm so unbelievably excited about working here... being surrounded by books... is there really anything better? And this will take my mind off of what's going on in my heart right now. So the job offer came at exactly the right time... perfection!

    I saw Tool for the third time a couple weeks ago... that is definitely a highlight of my life. If I wrote an autobiography, concerts would get their own chapter. So life is good... and it's only up to me to keep it that way. I realized that I was letting something deliberately keep me down. By letting it go, I will be much happier.



    Mood: Sniffle...

    Posted on 2007-03-21 17:59:48

       sad sad sad


    Mood: Overwhelmed

    Posted on 2007-03-15 15:09:30

    I have succeeded in making a boy cry. After all the times guys have made me cry, I've always wanted to be able to make them cry. Mean spirited I know... but it only seems fair. I shouldn't be the only one hurting.
    Except this time, it was a different hurt.

    My best friend Jonathan is getting married; he lives in Colorado, I live 87 states away in Louisiana. Last night he called me to tell me we can't be friends anymore. His Fiancee isn't comfortable with us being friends, I've known him much longer than she has. So he called to say after doing much battle with himself over it, the best thing is to just not have any contact with me. Broke my heart... which is strange because my heart was already broken because of something that happened with another friend. I didn't think it could break any more. But it did. *tear*

    He was crying as he told me this, and thanked me so much for being such a good friend and always being there for him and how terrible it is for our friendship to end this way after 8 years.
    It was one of those moments where you just don't have words to say how you feel. I wanted him to know how much I would miss him, how much he has meant to me. But instead I said "It's okay." When it's not okay! But what can I do?
    It's just really bad timing because another super good friend of mine stopped talking to me a few months ago, and Jonathan was helping me get through that, and now he's gone too. I'm just so super sad today.
    But we cried together and said our goodbyes.

    If you've read my poem YOUR BOX... I'm about to get started on another box...
    I see lots more sad poetry in my future



    Mood: Sniffle...

    Posted on 2007-03-07 22:05:33

       Wanna put my tender heart in a blender Watch it spin round to a beautiful oblivion
    You take the breath right out of me You left a hole where my heart should be


    Sad Face

    Mood: Sniffle...

    Posted on 2006-11-25 11:53:54

       I'm feeling very sad today. I just want to curl up on a couch and take a nap. Or watch a sad movie. Both! I know it will get better because in about an hour I will be on my way to spend a few days with my bestest friend ever and she will for sure make me happy. But until then I will remain gloomy.


    Mood: In Love

    Posted on 2006-11-08 08:04:25

       Read my latest submission and you'll understand the Blahness.

    But other than that, life if just a chair of bowlies! I'm busy as a bee and enjoying life.

    Been kinda sick the last few days but I never stay sick for long, thank goodness, because I really don't have time to be sick right now. Come back in August and maybe I'll be ready for ya


    Tool !!!

    Mood: The Usual

    Posted on 2006-03-14 23:05:29

       download VICARIOUS!!!


    !!!!!!!!! Track listing for the new TOOL album entitled 10,000 DAYS set to be released on MAY 2nd, 2006 !!!!!!!!!

    Wings For Marie (Pt 1)
    10,000 Days (Wings Pt 2)
    The Pot
    Lipan Conjuring
    Lost Keys
    Rosetta Stoned
    Right In Two
    Viginti Tres



    Blue October

    Mood: Overwhelmed

    Posted on 2006-02-24 17:32:13

       This is my new favorite song. It's way more mellow than the stuff I usually like. "Hate Me" by Blue October

    I have to block out thoughts of you so I don’t lose my head
    They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
    Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I’m alone
    Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
    There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
    An ounce of peace is all I want for you. will you never call again?
    And will you never say you that love me just to put in my face?
    And will you never try to reach me? it is I that wanted space
    Hate me today
    Hate me tomorrow
    Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you
    I’m sober now for 3 whole months it’s one accomplishment that you helped me with
    The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won’t touch again
    In my sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
    While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
    You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
    You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
    So I’ll drive so far away that I never cross your mind
    And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind
    Hate me today
    Hate me tomorrow
    Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you
    Hate me in ways
    Yeah ways hard to swallow
    Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you
    And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
    Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made
    And like a baby boy I never was a man
    Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
    And then I fell down yelling “make it go away!”
    Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be
    And then she whispered “how can you do this to me?”
    Hate me today
    Hate me tomorrow
    Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you
    Hate me in ways
    Yeah ways hard to swallow
    Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you



    Mood: Juggling Tasks

    Posted on 2006-02-01 20:50:25

       Lazy Sunday. Wake up in the late afternoon. Call Parnell just to see how he's doin. "Hello?" "What up, Parns?" "Yo Samberg, what's crackin?" "You thinkin what I'm thinkin?" "Narnia!, man it's hapnin." "But first my hunger pains are stickin like duct tape." "Let's hit up Magnolia and mack on some cupcakes." "No doubt the bakery has got all the bomb frostings." " I love those cupcakes like McAdams loves Gosling." 2 no 6 no 12 bakers dozen. I told you that I'm crazy for these cupcakes, cousin. Yo where's the movie playin? The West Side, dude. Well let's hit up Yahoo Maps to find the dopest route. I prefer MapQuest. That's a good one too. Google Maps is the best. Trudat. Double true! 68th and Broadway. Step on it Sucka. What you wanna do, Chris? Snack attack motha@&$%#! It's the ChronicWHATcles of Narnia. Yes the ChronicWHATcles of Narnia. We love the ChronicWHATcles of Narnia. That's the ChronicWHATcles of Narnia! Yo stop at the deli. The theater's overpriced. You got the backpack, gonna pack it up nice. Don't want security to get suspicious. Mr. Pibb and Red Vine equals crazy delicious. Reach in my pocket, pull out some dough. Girl acted like she never seen a 10 befo. It's all about the Hamiltons, baby! Throw the snacks in the bag and i'm Ghost like Swayze. Roll up to the theater. Ticket buyin what we're handlin. You can call us Aaron Burr from the way we're droppin Hamiltons. We're parked in our seats, movie trivia's the illest. What Friends allum starred in films with Bruce Willis? We answered so fast it was scary. Everyone ... when we screamed Matthew Perry! The quiet in the theater is gonna get tragic. We're bout to get taken to a dreamworld of magic. It's the ChronicWHATcles of Narnia. Yes the ChronicWHATcles of Narnia. We love the ChronicWHATcles of Narnia. That's the ChronicWHATcles of Narnia !