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User	lethargic_me | 2005-08-02 |
Subject	untitled
Message	I use to cut, I actually stopped about a year and a half ago. I never did it for attention, to cover the scars I’d wear long sleeve shirts even in the summer. I cut because on the inside I was completely and utterly hurting. I’d cry for no reason at all in the middle of the grocery store. I’d have these horrible thoughts in my head while I was like washing dishes and I couldn’t figure out why. I couldn’t stand to be awake because I felt so much pain and when I slept I’d have the worst nightmares. I couldn’t figure out why I felt the way that I did, so I made a reason. I cut myself just so I could see the pain. So there would be a reason for it. It was like a release and for that couple of minutes of cutting that I put myself through at all times of the day I actually felt alright. I had a reason for the pain. I’m not promoting cutting, I think that it is one of the worst things to do because it just fucks you up more. I think if you’re doing it, you should stop immediately and get help. Hell, pm me and I’ll help you and talk to you and make you understand that its not the right choice. But I’m also not ashamed of my scars anymore, I wear them proudly, because in my eyes they’ve shaped me into the person that I am today, and I like who I am very much. Des

User	Lady Ankou | 2005-08-01 |
Subject	untitled
Message	i used to cut. theres lots of different reasons. for some it gives them an adrenaline rush. its almost like the pain leaves from your body just as the blood does. some do it to force themselves to feel because they feel empty. others want attention or even help. there are some who use all these reasons. another thing about it is that it becomes an addiction. trying to stop is like trying to quit smoking on cold turkey. its a really dark part of a person’s life, and also cutting makes it so you can never forget that you were in a world of hurt.

User	popular_myth | 2005-06-03 |
Subject	untitled
Message	For me wen I was younger cutting was a form of control, I lost control over everything in my life and it was the only thing i could control, also like everyone else is saying its an emotional release, i couldnt see the pain in my head but wen i cut i was putting on the outside i could see it, but they mite be my own reasons 4 doin it. I avn done it in maybe 3 years but i can control my mind now and it makes me a v happy person.

User	poetofthenight | 2005-06-02 |
Subject	Um...
Message	There are other ways to release emotions and to get rushes without drugs/alcohol/cutting. Seriously.

User	gothichik1 | 2005-05-10 |
Subject	untitled
Message	i am a cutter. i cut myself because of the adrenalin that i get form that. i was going through a tough time and i couldnt handle talking about it to any body and so i just took a knife and started cutting my wrists and i have a huge star that is in my leg. i did it because it was a way to release my feelings and after a while, the pain was no more. like right now if i was to cut my self in the wrists, i couldnt feel it. the tissue is dead in that spot and i get this feeling like everything is going to be ok when i see the blood.nameless_nobody put it in perfect perspective and thats why i did it. it ties in with wolfstar and ladydeathstrike. but the pain is still not over so i have the urge of doing it again. and i have came close to commiting suicide and i have done that for like 10-12 times with cutting. 6 times with overdosing. i put my self through a lot of shit and i couldnt deal with it nor culd i handle it. so i did what i thought was right. i forgot about the other pain and focused on the mutilation and the blood. but i have to go. im starting to feel that way again and i dont want to freak you out. sorry if i didnt explain it better. thats just why i do it.

User	Rainin_Raspbery | 2005-05-09 |
Subject	untitled
Message	I have alot of friends who do it. Plus i used to be a cutter.I see what your saying!But we do to help ourselves.After a while it becomes an addiction.It become like a andorphment after a while

User	ladydeathstrike | 2005-04-22 |
Subject	mutilation....
Message	i know some of my friends who do it, for them its like nameless_nobody says its to forget about everything else going on in your life, all your energy and mind is focused on the pain you forget about the parents who dont love you, the friends who are backstabbers, the teachers always on your back and the confusion of not knowing who you are. I tried it once but i was really didnt go very deep, it was a time where i felt so depressed i needed something to help me forget the pain and for a while it did but afterwards i could not do it anymore i became afraid of what i could do to myself and stopped but then like in my poem Skin Deep Incision my sort of mutilation is inside myself. I have learned that the my body is a temple that i must protect.

User	WolfStar | 2005-04-21 |
Subject	untitled
Message	I know a lot of girls who do it, and for them it’s release. When you have so much hurt and depression pent up, you want to let it out. But a lot of people don’t want to hurt anyone else. They hate themselves, they are dissatisfied and angry at themselves. They are their enemy, and sometimes think that they deserve it, that they are the only ones who know how bad they are inside. It’s really sad.

User	nameless_nobody | 2005-04-21 |
Subject	untitled
Message	not personaly a cutter but its easy to understand the rush. sometimes i see how deep i can push pins into my skin. not deep enough to do any harm just for the fun of it. its the rush of pain. you ever been in a fight? you know when someone punches you, the pain lasts a second then the adrenalin kicks in and you blank everything out. when you hurt yourself you get a buzz. go get a pin and push it into your knee till it touches your knee cap. the pain focuses your mind. pain gets your mind on whats causeing the pain. when you hurt yourself all you are thinking about is the pain. all the emotional shit gets forgoten. pysical pain blocks out the mental and emotional pain.