| User | Demon__666 | | Topic | Didnt feel like it | | Message | I just didnt want to live today when i wake up but i was forced to go to school which is the worst place you could have sent me. I wanted to die yesterday so i thought hey why not a razerblade. 13 little nicks and you know what i get? Yelled at and a bunch of band aids. Soo was there ever a day you didnt want to live. A day that you would have rather just stayed in bed and wither away. This would have been my day. |
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| User | Demon__666 | 2007-05-23 | | | Subject | untitled | | Message | OK NOW MY MAYBE CHILD IS AN ACCIDENT HOW DO I EXPLAIN THAT TO HER? |
| User | Demon__666 | 2007-05-04 | | | Subject | untitled | | Message | yeh well thanks. that helps. |
| User | mae | 2007-05-02 | | | Subject | untitled | | Message | There is nothing in life that does not change - except death. Whatever you’re going through now will be different tomorrow or next week. Why waste all the rest of your life over something that’s going to change, anyway? You undo anything except dying. mae |
| User | Demon__666 | 2007-05-01 | | | Subject | untitled | | Message | yes very good points thank you all for your kind words. |
| User | dismentled | 2007-04-29 | | | Subject | untitled | | Message | Ink’s got some good points! |
| User | UnderINK | 2007-04-28 | | | Subject | untitled | | Message | Look, here’s what high school breakups teach you:
1.) Most men are inconsiderate assholes at your age. In fact, they’re not men, they’re BOYS. Don’t take boy breakups seriously. They’re learning to deal with women as much as you’re learning to deal with men. That’s what dating is for when you’re young.
2.) Most of what people your age are interested in is sex. That might not be the case for you, specifically, but the people you date that end up dating your best friends are probably interested in someone they find more physically attractive. It’s hormonal.
3.) You’re not meant to stay with anyone right now. You aren’t meant to run off and get married yet. Don’t take breakups seriously because there are about 7 billion people in the world right now, one of them is for you. If they break up with you, they ARE NOT WORTH IT.
4.) Get over it. Seriously. Worse shit will happen in your life. Your parents will die someday, you might not make it into the college you want, you’ll probably get rejected from jobs, you might have a miscarriage, your spouse could die, you could have a bad accident and become permanantly paralyzed. Believe me, it could get worse. And it will get a lot worse before it gets better because it’s bad as long as you focus on the negative. The reason optimists get by in life is because there is always an upside to every negative happening. Start taking your life seriously and thinking about it. A boy dumped you. Bright side? You didn’t waste serious time with a loser. You can spend it doing something you enjoy.
I wasted a long time with someone I wanted to marry. I dated him for four years, and then got with the person I’m with now. Four years gone. Bright side? I learned what to expect and what not to expect out of men. I learned how to deal with fights. I learned the negatives about my personality. Keyword? I *learned*. Learn it and get over it; suffering exists to teach lessons. |
| User | joeyalphabet | 2007-04-26 | | | Subject | untitled | | Message | I think all you girls should stop looking at all the negatives and try looking at the positives. Not to sound pollyanna or anything, but are your lives REALLY so bad overall? |
| User | UnderlinedInRed | 2007-04-26 | | | Subject | untitled | | Message | To answer your question...how much worse until it gets better? There can be many responses the that.
1) You gotta suck it up, cuz it could get worse but only if you let it. Dont under-estimate the power of positive thinking, it has taken me this far.
2) It could get better an second. So just hold out. I know you can make it if you try.
And yeah I have been in a situation like that as well....my ex...I thought I loved him. And he was always meeting up with this friend of his, my friend as well. And they got stoned together all the time. But then after a while it was all about be stoned and less about me, so we broke it off. Now they have been going out for about 4 months. Yeah sometimes life sucks, and you make think you have got it bad, but you dont.
And let me just say the whole condom and pill thing....if you can beat that, then you already know you are strong. All you need now is to show that strength.
Hey, you have friends too. Listen to them. They care about you. And there are many people out there who have it much worse than you...none of this is your fault, you just need to deal with it because you CAN deal with it. |
| User | misty_of_moon | 2007-04-25 | | | Subject | untitled | | Message | Keri....(yes, i know i’m supposed to call you demon here but not this time) I’m glad i came to look at this thread.
STOP, please, for the love of eveything ever. Do you remember what i told you (no SCREAMED at you) that day when you cut at school? it isn’t worth it. plus i’m sure everyone on earth has days when life sucks, days when it isn’t worth living. it’s IS worth it, no matter how bad one day can be there is always tomorrow! always. there is still hope in this world. there is still good (although, yo uand i are decidely pure evil) the point is that you can’t give up just for stupid shit. a mistake? my love, i do not think you are a mistake, if you beat the condom and the pill, then that means you are by far intended to be here, by whatever cosmic force you want to credit with it, you are intended. And if all else in my arguement fails, then just you remember our table. You know all those people at that table (give or take a couple depending on the day) love you and we’re here for you. And then there’s me. It seems that no matter what crazy shit you do, i still love you and am still here for you reguardless (the old, well-known "can’t hold a grudge clause!).
I love you, Stay with me.
(btw, i didn’t proof-read this so excuse any mistakes you might encounter) |
| User | Demon__666 | 2007-04-25 | | | Subject | Thanks | | Message | Im sorry for sounding emo and i am sorry for feeling like i am the only one in the world with problems. Im sorry that all these things happened to you people. UnderlinedInRed. I have been where you are right now. Except i dated this guy and all through the relationship he told me he wasnt interested in my best friend and every time i turned around they were "Accidentally" meeting. I loved him alot well et least i thought i did anyways and things got bad in the relationship so i broke it off. Not but a few days later they were dating and my only choice was to get over it. Yes life sucks for me Yes i am just a teenager and everyone thinks it gets better. How much worse does it get before it gets Better? |
| User | UnderlinedInRed | 2007-04-25 | | | Subject | untitled | | Message | hmm yeah. I know how that feels. I usually just suck it up and write a shitload of poetry. Kinda riding it out you know, because I write best when I am the most down. Basically, find the silver lining. I know its cliche but every day there is a chance for something good to happen.
For instance last weekend I was incredibly depressed, I didnt want to go anywhere, or do anything. I think it has to do with the fact that I liked this guy, who ended up just wanting to be friends, so I was forced to not like him. Then he started liking my friend who likes him. Basically to sum it all up they are going to get together and I have got zilch, nada. Want to know the silver lining? I finally got it thrown in my face to MOVE ON. And thats the most important message anyone can give.
So hey, your depressed, hey you dont want to wake up in the morning for fear of getting worse. Do what you can then. Write. Vent. Hang with people you KNOW will make you happier. Do whatever it takes to just survive it, and then when you make it through, you will see life is much happier on the other side. |
| User | UnderINK | 2007-04-24 | | | Subject | untitled | | Message | This seems incredibly, painfully emo. Wake up. Your life does not suck that bad. You’re going through the same thing every teenager goes through. Suck it up, honestly. I’d rather live and suffer and learn from suffering than give up and die like someone with no willpower. |
| User | dismentled | 2007-04-24 | | | Subject | untitled | | Message | Lifes a bitch and than you die, so...; no that’s too cliche. Look, I too am a "mistake"(not that, that’s supposed to be comforting) and have had one fucked up thing after another happen all my life. I don’t expect it to get any better, cause whenever I think it can’t get worse, I’m proven wrong. I’ve got a wonderful son(my reason for living) whom I can’t see, about 4-5 warrants out for my arrest, and have to get hooked up to a machine that takes a gallon of my blood everyother fucking day, and leaves me feeling like runover shyt. And whats worse is(including the warrants) those things have come more from circumstance than anything else, and until I get alot of money, and someone who doesn’t want one of there kidneys, I’m gonna be fucked. Bottom line is you have to find your own reason to live, for many people what I’ve gone through would be "too much", and there are others who make that look like a day in the park. Nobodys gonna pick you up and make everything alright. Life will suck, and treat you like shyt; but it’s up to you how you handle it, and how "bad" you allow it to be perceived. |
| User | Demon__666 | 2007-04-24 | | | Subject | untitled | | Message | I dont know about anything anymore. Im so confused @_@. I hope i get better at handeling it real soon. |
| User | joeyalphabet | 2007-04-19 | | | Subject | untitled | | Message | Just because you weren’t planned doesn’t make you a ’mistake.’ My first son wasn’t planned and he’s not a mistake.
As for life getting easier, it doesn’t - you just get better at handling it. |
| User | Demon__666 | 2007-04-19 | | | Subject | untitled | | Message | I wrote a poem about it but i dont deem it worthy of posting. I think i have fucked up enough that i have deemed my life not worthy of living. I mean maybe i am just a teenager but damn it life has to get easier somewhere. |
| User | silent_death12 | 2007-04-18 | | | Subject | untitled | | Message | no one’s birth was a literal "mistake" exactly, and it’s a bit late fore that, it’s much more what you do with your life that makes it worthy of being deemed a ’mistake’ or not. |
| User | Demon__666 | 2007-04-18 | | | Subject | untitled | | Message | i dont feel like i have a purpose. i beat the condom and the pill so i was a mistake anyways. |
| User | DaGrimReaperess | 2007-04-15 | | | Subject | untitled | | Message | dont get emo yoll. |
| User | blankscreen | 2007-04-14 | | | Subject | untitled | | Message | Yeah, I know those days for sure.
Nothing you can really do about it
the best thing is to keep moving i guess.
writings always good for me:) |
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