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Jay-Z’s track “Song Cry” and the movie “Casino” is a prime example of what Bryson base his relationship with Vanessa on. Ace and Ginger; Ace did everything for Ginger out of love, this made him weak and unfocused. Ginger just fucked up all the time and no matter what Ace would take her back because he loved her with all his heart and soul, his emotions got the best of him and affected his judgment. Vanessa was like crack, she would cause more harm then good being in Bryson’s life but when he was around her nothing else in the world mattered and it was like he was in heaven while being with her. Ginger had Ace’s heart in the palm of her hand and his wallet in the other. Vanessa put Bryson through a lot of hell and he couldn’t stop loving her and doesn’t think he will ever stop loving her; therefore, he knows what Ace is going through, their love makes them powerless to stop or let alone resist them being apart of their lives.
Vanessa cheated Bryson out of money, he had wanted these fresh South Pole pants out of the store Vanessa worked at. You know black folks always looking for the discount. He takes the pants to Vanessa to buy for him after she get off the work since her discount was 50% off, the pants came out to be 23 bucks; however, Bryson only had 40 bucks and didn’t have enough time to break change because he had to be at work at a short time. Out of love and trust, Bryson told Vanessa just bring back his change when she gets off work to his job around the corner and with a smile on her face she said “No problem.” Vanessa shows up to Bryson’s job later on with the pants in the bag; Bryson was excited to have the pants and then was looked at Vanessa and said “Thanks shawtie, where my change at?” Vanessa looked at Bryson with a smile on his face yet again and said “Uhh, Bryson there was this skirt at work I really wanted and so...” “Stop playing give me my change Vanessa,” Bryson said. Instead of giving him his change, Vanessa pulled out another bag and showed Bryson the skirt. Furious, Bryson couldn’t believe how much of a fool he was to let her just dick him over like this and still look at her as the love of his life. Vanessa knew Bryson wouldn’t get too mad that she spent his money to buy herself a piece of clothing and that is why she went ahead and brought the skirt also with the pants. Bryson never wanted to make her mad due to the fact he thought he would never see her again; therefore, he made no big deal of what had happened but in his mind went to war with himself as if he had two alter egos. Bryson didn’t think the situation could get any worse.
Vanessa also confessed that she had cheated on Bryson while they were together; however, Bryson was angry and in his mind he pushed Vanessa through a wall to let out his anger but in reality, Bryson took it as it didn’t faze him and said “That was something that happened in the past, and I prolly deserved it, I wasn’t on my job.”
Bryson knew he was a sucker for staying around after he found that out, he began to make excuses for her when he told his friends what she had done. Even though Vanessa didn’t know that Bryson cheated on her while they were together also, his friends knew and they were constantly saying “She doesn’t know you cheated; therefore, you need to just drop her completely, if you take her back she will do it again and again.” The love Bryson had for Vanessa got stronger the more time went by, he wanted to walk away from the situations but he didn’t want to be alone or be with a person and couldn’t give her all his attention because of the love he had for Vanessa. He realized he was in love with Vanessa and she could do anything to him and he would always take her back when she took his innocence away from him like a thief in the night.
Bryson will never fully recover from the information he will soon be delivered; however, the information would become the permanent bond that would forever connect them. Bryson would publicly state constantly that if he ever contacted an STD from a female that he would go straight to the females house and beat the brakes off her mutherfuckin ass; Vanessa would always hear this be like “Well I ain’t got no STD so you ain’t gotta worry about it, I’m just on the pill.”After an intimate conversation late one night, Bryson told Vanessa he didn’t want to have any secrets between him and her and he wanted to know everything about her. Vanessa asked if he was sure and Bryson replied “Yes I don’t care what it is.” Boy he was wrong again.
Vanessa started by saying “I’m sorry Bryson, I know you know I cheated on you and I’m sorry that happened because I don’t know why I slept with him and wish I never had.” Then Bryson thought to himself for an instant, “What if God made her do it because I was doing the same thing at the time and he wanted me to feel what it was like to be somewhere thinking about your other and they are with another person betraying your trust.” But then the secret he would discover would totally end his previous thought; Vanessa said “Well Bryson, a long time ago I found out I had an STD of Herpes and HPV, I wanted to tell you but I didn’t want you to leave me, I care about you so much... I remember all those times you would say if a bitch gave me a STD and I got scared.” Bryson’s heart totally hit the floor and his mind started to wonder out of control with confusion and plenty of prayers to God to hope he didn’t have a STD. Bryson said, “WHAT! Girl do you know how many times I had sex with you without a condom? I mean I ate you out; I trusted you Vanessa.” Bryson couldn’t stop praying in his head to God, “Lord please don’t let me have an STD, please let me have some good luck.” Bryson told Vanessa he was going to the doctor first thing in the morning and he would talk to her when he knew what results were. Vanessa could only say, “Bryson I’m sorry and please don’t leave me alone, I can’t do without you and you told me you love me no matter what and I love you so much.” The next day Bryson went to the local clinic, butterflies in his stomach and thoughts racing through his mind like a track meet. |
