Mood: clinically,physically,mentally unstable.Boldly entering a new year more pessimistic than ever. If that's possible. Lower than nothing. Flatter than a flatline. Flattery doesn't charge my battery. My bullsh1t detector is pointing at me, and it is wailing it's heart out. I'm off the radar, I'm off on a tangent, Missing Inaction. Missed? not likely......Created 2010-02-20 03:32:49
Journal: What I am... -------------------------------------------
Mood: the moody bluesI want to have my cake and eat it,
Fuck the system I want to beat it,
Show me the way, I'll take a short cut,
Whilst busily shooting myself in the foot....Created 2007-05-02 15:55:55
Mood: Yeay!!If 500 monkeys on 500 PC's,
could eventually knock out a Shakespeare with ease,
could a monkeys uncle with a rollerball pen,
ever write something half-decent again?...Created 2007-03-28 11:23:01
Mood: RantListen to ; 10 in 01 by Members of Mayday when taking e's
or shit loads of speed.
Miss Halfway by Anya Marina when coming down, chilling or gauching.
EZ Pass by Har Mar Superstar when snorting ket or coke.
Or just go to bed on the normal bag of doctor pills you get given when you're my age.
Oh, don't forget Are You Experienced by Jimi Hendrix if you're peaking on shit hot acid.
Move over rover, and let Jimi take over.
Stimulation not Intoxication. Freedom of information is freedom of choice. Don't put up with smoking shit pot or drinking all day, 'cos that's what they all want you to do. Nice and docile - or killing yourselves or each other. Makes their job easier. The bastards.
Strive to survive causing least suffering possible.
Mood: Hopeful but realistic.30 mgs of mirtazapine still, but 20 mgs of diazepam thrown in for good measure - 16 mg of buprenorphine ends the proper chemical hammering. plus lots of boring crap for various other ailments.
Still abstaining from my great love of Amphetamines, as well as hallucinogenics and the various forms of MDMA.
It's been tough, but no-one said it would be a theme park. The hardest has been the speed; as I'd kinda got into the mindset that I couldn't create without veins full of phet. I know this not to be true. ish.
If anyone needs any listening recommendations, then there's Harvest by Neil Young (album) Miss Halfway by Anya Marina (single - and one of the best songs I've heard for 3 or 4 years ) and Same Jeans by The View.
More reading, viewing and listening can be recommended upon request.
Hope you are all as happy as you deserve to be.
Ben...Created 2007-03-10 17:54:22
Journal: Feb 2007 -------------------------------------------
Mood: 30 mg of MirtazapineCame back to write a bit, Comment a bit.
Nice to see there a still some pleasant people about.
But remember. It doesn't always turn out right.
So don't rely on it to....Created 2007-01-30 18:32:58