Journal: Que sera, sera -------------------------------------------Mood: Dead On Sunday, on the whim of a general thought, I changed the greeting on my cell phone to the phrase "que sera, sera". I didn't think much of it. I just did it. No reason in particular. Since I've been out here in Wyoming, so much seems to have changed. I have an apartment with my boyfriend. I have a full-time job. My bills are in my name and not my parents. I guess I'm getting a little taste of responsibility -- and quickly. Every morning, I have to drag myself out of bed for a 8-10 hour day at the bank (credit unions are SO much better), make the meals for the day, and just take care of the things I need to. I attend online school (supposedly... I should probably actually attend every so often, eh?). I've got a full-time life, and who knows, I might even be getting myself a weekend job tomorrow. My friends and family are far away. Everything's so fucking far away. I just feel lost in a sense. It's so damn cold out here... you have no clue... and I think its more than just the weather... Monday morning: 7:00am-5:40pm at the bank. Fricking long day that I didn't even feel like waking up. But, you know what, at least I had the option to wake up. Some people aren't so lucky. I got off work. Had 3 missed calls from my sister. Called her back. (I'm fighting back tears now) "Rolando died today, Dan" she said. Rolando, my stepdad of 6+ years, is gone. Car accident. Flipped. Died instantly. And simply gone. "He's never coming back" my mom said. And its true (Damn... im choking up in the library and I dont even care right now). You know, for all the arguments and stupid fights that he and I got into, I don't even care about those anymore. I'd apologize to him more than ever if I could. They all seem so trivial now. Simple everyday things now go on, and I wish that I could call him, because (not that I ever admitted it to him... no... I guess I was too proud for that), I valued his advice more than a lot of other people. I trusted him, believe it or not, very much. Mom, Jenny.... he's gone. It's just us now. Let's fight like never before. He was brave enough to live in a house full of 3 crazy Brazilian women, let's make it worth his while. You know... its not gonna be easy. I don't have a fucking clue what to do now that he's gone. I'm no good at comforting. I'm sorry for that. But I'm here, way out here... but close to home in your hearts. "Que sera, sera" But let's fucking make it what it is... Let's never give up. I love you, Rolando. Thanks for everything... Goodnight, and good luck. ...Created 2006-09-13 20:26:50

Journal: just checkin in -------------------------------------------Mood: The Usual its been awhile since ive really been on here. nothing new to post yet, unfortunately... hopefully inspiration will fall upon me one of these days. :) ...Created 2006-06-08 14:42:26

Journal: I Am Cursed -------------------------------------------Mood: Relaxing So dimwitted was I To believe the words of a mere mortal; Not even the gods made good on their promises. What was I to expect from just a man? Just a part from my poem "I Am Cursed".... you know where to go for the rest of it :) ...Created 2006-02-16 08:45:10

Journal: -------------------------------------------Mood: Thinking... Life is so.... well, so... like poetry. Some things come inspired. There are sprees where everything just comes to you. Then -- then come the dry spells. Lord, help me get through the tough times. ...Created 2005-11-25 00:02:37

Journal: -------------------------------------------Mood: Thinking... Life is so.... well, so... like poetry. Some things come inspired. There are sprees where everything just comes to you. Then -- then come the dry spells. Lord, help me get through the tough times. ...Created 2005-11-25 00:02:35

Journal: -------------------------------------------Mood: Moo! 0.o Hey, peoples... Long time, no write. Well, anywho... just wanted to let everyone know that I AM still here; hopefully, I'll get some time soon to wander around the site. Anywho, until then! Love ya! Daniela ...Created 2005-08-07 00:08:19

Journal: Whohoo! -------------------------------------------Mood: Yeay!! Oh, yeah! I just graduated on the 20th, and now I am officially free of high school... College, here I come! Anywho, I'm going to be taking my boyfriend with me to Brazil coming up here sometime soon (hopefully within the next couple of weeks). Anywho, I'm excited... Love ya guys! Muah Muah! Adios, chicos! ...Created 2005-05-22 08:58:20

Journal: -------------------------------------------Mood: The Usual Oi, gente? Como vai? Estou com novo namorado e agora estou tao e tao feliz! Tchau para agora, meu bems... Beijos e muitos abracos... dandan ...Created 2005-05-12 13:34:40

Journal: -------------------------------------------Mood: Relaxing And as the rain ceases its downpour, the sun doth appear from behind the darkest clouds... melancholy feelings, weighty within mine heart, are made light, and I am relieved of this monstrous pain once again! Aye, que vida mais interesante e curiosa!!! ...Created 2004-10-25 15:48:34

Journal: -------------------------------------------Mood: Depressed Oh, but one cannot keep from expressing the secrets, the pains of the heart.... -dandan ...Created 2004-10-21 20:07:32

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