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    Mood: Bored AS FUCK!!1

    Holy Crap. Boop. >_>; So bored.

    ...Created 2007-10-17 11:30:58

    dotsJournal: dots
    Mood: Thinking...

    Ok, ready. This might be long.

    I'm upset. Which defined by me, is Sad and Angry.
    Lucia came back. I decided completely on her name today. I wasn't ever sure what her name should for the longest while..I just didn't give her a name. She was an it..A feeling. That I talked to, that for some reason I felt answered back.

    She is my anger and sadness. Though..sometimes..we share more feelings then I think about. She's my shadow. I'd already be dead without her. She doesn't have a true form..really. But, I picture her beauty in my mind. And she knows my limited beauty. I'm not saying I'm beautiful, I'm far from it.

    I'm lying much more now, and I've found that school has become..more boring then usual. I write the notes, then slowly..I stop. I know I should, but Lucia doesn't want too, and maybe I don't either.

    So we were together at lunch again today, because..none of my friends want to hang out with me. And since I've hidden Lucia from everybody, until now. Lately, she's become so big. Such a huge part of my life, that I want, no I have to share her.

    But, yet not completely, because She's mine. No one can see, or feel her but me. I love her. I love her more then the girlfriend I have right now. Right now I find my girlfriend annoying. Maybe I always have.

    Maybe, I just don't know love. Neither of us do. Me or Lucia.

    I feel like crying, but nothing ever comes out anymore. I want to find a place to hide each school day to talk to Lucia out loud. She likes it better that way.

    I have to go, someone is coming. And I hate when they read over my shoulder. Because they all do.
    No one in my family understands the meaning of privacy.

    ...Created 2007-10-11 19:37:05

    dotsJournal: dots
    Mood: Overwhelmed

    Facebook won't stop e-mailing me crap, I even lowered the number of e-mails they send me. =-=; it's annoying me to death.
    It's not like a have a zillion friends that need to speak to's just annoying crap. That I hate.

    And my friends are fighting. Joy. And I'm the middle. Sort of like..I have no idea. I just hate it.

    ...Created 2007-10-09 16:08:01

    dotsJournal: dots
    Mood: Tired

    WRONG. Back to Public school. Surprise to me. Kinda.

    I'm tired anyway, that was a long time ago. I just haven't been here in a long while.

    Good night.

    ...Created 2007-10-07 20:58:05

    dotsJournal: dots
    Mood: Yeay!!

    bBHVbgfb jvd I'm sort of happy today. I might be going to a private school! vbeabfn FINALLY. I had a chance before but being an idiot I said no, then I found out what a fucking DUMB idea that was. I HATE PUBLIC SCHOOLS. And everyone in them. I do have friends..sorta. Sometimes they don't seem like friends. Other times..Yeah. Whatever.
    I'm happy, I just have to hope family allows me..and My family's paycheck allows me. Hehehe. Hope is as good as gold for me right now.

    ...Created 2007-09-21 08:53:40

    dotsJournal: dots
    Mood: At War

    Err..Well. Shit isn't any better really..I suppose. One friend..I talked too, well no I talked to both, one I forgave...the other I only found out lied to my other friend about what was happening, and that he had told her my mom was coming when she wasn't...What the fuck is that? According to his mother (Who's now passed. Sadly.) I was one of the best friends he's had because..I always stick up for him and listen to him..when no one else would. I like him..he's fun to be around. But..I just never thought for a friend to would hurt so much.

    ...Created 2007-09-03 12:31:20

    dotsJournal: dots
    Mood: Too much at once...

    Right so two of my friends pop over for a bit, then I go over to one of their houses for a bit, but we're going to a party. I end up not being able to go, but I don't know that UNTIL the person comes to pick them up, and my friend says 'oh well, stay here and wait for my dad to come and he'll drive you home.' then they both leave a house with his sister. I barely know his sister. In fact she hasn't talked to me in the longest time.
    So I call my mom to come get me no answer, I call my dad, no answer, call my house NO ANSWER. So I'm like fuck that, I'm not waiting until 8:30-9:00 for his dad to come home, in fact I didn't even know if his dad WOULD take me home, so I start walking. But after crying for the longest time I clue in that, I have no idea why I tried to have friends again because they ALWAYS end up FUCKING ME OVER. So I'm fucked over again. I know my brother is home but just won't pick up, but I keep calling my mom, my dad, and my brother over and over and over. No FUCKING ANSWER. So I have to walk 5 miles to get the dark. Oh joy. Let's now go try and find the pedo's house and MAYBE HE'LL DRIVE ME HOME! Or sure..great friends. I always stick up for you, when people make fun of you call you a dike..or call you a dirty Mexican, and this is what I get in return. Well fuck if I knew I'd get that..
    I realized it really isn't worth trying for. I mean..what the hell is wrong will going to a new school with no friends at all. And people who most likely want to kill you right now, and...maybe have social phobia too. Oh and talking to yourself will be a REAL hit with everyone else.
    Oh hey maybe, you could try telling them you have a friend who no one can see BUT you.
    FUCK THAT. I'll just go kill myself now.

    ...Created 2007-08-31 20:00:26

    dotsJournal: dots
    Mood: Frustrated

    Found the pages for Domino a few days ago. But, I haven't found my drawing of Masked Boy. Frustrating. Very frustrating.

    ...Created 2007-08-27 10:35:18

    dotsJournal: dots
    Mood: The Usual

    I've got writers block on Wishing for Her Love, and I've lost the pages for Domino. Err. What the hell!?
    This sucks, I'm so angry. I'm going to try and post in Wishing for Her Love, but I have a feeling it will be the worst of the bunch.
    It's frustrating.

    I'll just wish myself luck, and hopefully the pages for Domino will appear someday soon. Really soon, I want to continue writing it.

    ...Created 2007-08-15 10:10:25

    dotsJournal: dots
    Mood: The Usual

    Iain is watching me, it's annoying. I want him to die.

    ...Created 2007-08-14 19:36:59

    Be kind, take a few minutes to review the hard work of others <3
    It means a lot to them, as it does to you.




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