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    dotsJournal: rawrdots
    Mood: The Usual

    Stop the world today, I'd like to get off.

    ...Created 2012-03-13 21:04:18

    dotsJournal: meh?dots
    Mood: The Usual

    I guess I just feel like writing here. Lately, I've been bombarded by feelings on the sides of dozens of different people. It's been overwhelming in some regards. I've never been surrounded by such politically minded ones.

    But just to make it clear to myself, I'm not a liberal and I'm not a conservative. As odd as it may sound to anybody else, I'm strongly for gay rights and strongly against abortions. Gay rights are ways that living people embrace life, it's the natural way they are. But saying that women can't kill the person growing in them is an invasion of privacy goes too far for me.

    I recently saw a picture that disgusted me. It was an image of children born into poverty, captioned with a phrase about how many kids are born poor which could have been prevented by abortion. I also recently heard a statistic about how crime rates have lowered in many areas since the legalization of abortion. So these kids are better killed than poor? Only the rich should reproduce? If being poor is worse than death, maybe we should just bomb poverty stricken areas.

    People always say that abortion is an intrusion in a woman's reproductive health. It violates her rights, she should have the right to choose. But other than in cases of rape, she already made her decision. She doesn't have the right to end her child's life because that life is inconvenient. And no matter how wrong anybody thinks that might be, it's what I believe.

    ...Created 2012-03-06 21:49:59

    dotsJournal: I has a journaldots
    Mood: The Usual

    Dood, I've completely forgotten I could write a journal on this site. However, I've gotten back into writing poetry a lot. Why do I do that?

    Anyway, garsh it's been a long time since I signed up here.

    ...Created 2012-03-04 22:50:31

    dotsJournal: D:dots
    Mood: The Usual

    Never mind. that guys is a jerk too

    ...Created 2008-01-29 15:37:43

    dotsJournal: ehhdots
    Mood: The Usual

    Life sucks balls.
    Me ex is being suck a fucking jackass. Five fucking minutes after his damn girlfriend dumps him, hes back in my lap telling me how much he loves me.
    I hate him. Seriously.
    I haven't even talked to this guy for a fucking month. At least a month even. And now hes all telling me how depressed he is and how he misses me. He thinks that I should give him another chance.
    I wish he would just leave me alone. x.x
    But, I'm talking to my boyfriend now, which I guess is good. I'm kind of paranoid of guys though, which I should hope is understandable as of late.
    I have stopped talking to my other ex because I pretty much hate his guts. Guys generally suck.
    I think my bf may be the only exeption...

    ...Created 2008-01-20 19:56:11

    dotsJournal: ARGdots
    Mood: The Usual

    Don't you just hate it when you hate somebody and love them at the same time??? x.x
    It makes things so complicated. Which is okay.

    I guess.
    I've pretty much decided that I don't really give a fuck about what happens to me anymore. Because it doesn't really matter! The doctors aren't going to fix me, because pills can't keep people from being totally fucked up.
    I don't think my poetry has ever been more depressing. Which sucks, because at this point poetry is one of the only things that matters to me. /
    I love rambling. It makes me feel so important. Damnit, now I feel all pathetic again.
    OOOH I get new medicine soon. HAHAHA. I'm sure THAT will help. Just like the last SIX helped. I have to write a list of reasons for cutting for my therapist.
    How the hell am I supposed to write that?
    "I hate myself, I'm pissed off, I hate other people"???
    I mean, really. x.x
    I'm not even quite sure why I'm writing this in the first place.
    Oh, right, venting. xD
    So, I have a boyfriend. I just hope I can trust this one. I hope so. I don't know if I can stand another heartbreak. Maybe I just shouldn't get to close to him?? GRRR But I like him a lot.
    But it seems that all the guys I like are clinically insane. At least. Or they're just perverted.
    I am too easily taken. That is definitely one thing I hate about myself.
    I'm so fucking pathetic. My therapist asked me to list some things I like about myself. I couldn't name one.
    Then she asked me to list some things I couldn't stand about myself. A VERY long list.
    ARG. I fail at self confidence. Even the therapist says I have a sad existance. x.x
    I don't even feel like eating chocolate. =[
    This isn't a release, its a build up of feeling, still inside me somewhere. x.x
    I don't even know HOW to release emotion in a "healthy" way. Why do people even care if I cut? Its my body, I should be able to do what I want with it. I mean really...

    ...Created 2008-01-14 21:33:59

    dotsJournal: x.xdots
    Mood: The Usual

    I hate my life.
    Why? I have no idea.
    Maybe its because of all these fucking doctors who tell me that I'm going to get better if I take those stupid pills. They aren't magic.
    They've only made me worse so far.
    I hate it.
    God damn why am I even writing this?

    ...Created 2008-01-09 20:33:06

    dotsJournal: Go Diedots
    Mood: The Usual

    The last few weeks have sucked. They shouldn't have. But they did. I won, I should be happy now.
    I'm not.
    What the fuck is wrong with me?
    Its like I don't know how or why to care.
    Its like I can't.
    Its like I don't even want to.

    ...Created 2008-01-08 13:45:21

    dotsJournal: fjeiowafjla;dots
    Mood: The Usual

    Meh. Christmas was fun, but things have been so fucking boring lately.

    ...Created 2007-12-28 08:34:46

    dotsJournal: so jahdots
    Mood: The Usual

    today was kind of sad, but kind of happy.
    its a week til i get to see everybody.

    ...Created 2007-12-21 21:35:28

    Be kind, take a few minutes to review the hard work of others <3
    It means a lot to them, as it does to you.

    Glyph written by Daniel Barlow
    Sweet You written by Daniel Barlow
    Cannot Assimilate written by Daniel Barlow
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    proclamations to the void written by cornonthekob
    Terrified written by MyPeriodical
    Me Verses written by cornonthekob
    Emotions written by taintedsmiles
    For serious written by Daniel Barlow
    Ahem written by Daniel Barlow
    quantum infinity written by Daniel Barlow
    You... written by rememberplaydoh
    Circle Life written by Forgiven
    Luchinushka written by HisNameIsNoMore
    Within a structure written by Daniel Barlow
    Global Death Do Incite written by MyPeriodical
    motivations, eclectic. written by Daniel Barlow
    being direct, it's written by Daniel Barlow
    At The Bottom written by MyPeriodical
    Forms and girders written by Daniel Barlow
    your feet, your flared nostrils, your forearms written by Daniel Barlow
    Take No Thought For Tomorrow! written by Torie
    Hurt written by rev.jpfadeproof
    For Joanne written by rememberplaydoh
    Forgetting You written by rev.jpfadeproof
    Between the walls written by taintedsmiles
    Kill written by Daniel Barlow
    Wooden Teeth written by taintedsmiles
    Only One You written by Darkwarrior
    Lying Acceptance written by ForgottenGraves




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