Journal: You -------------------------------------------Mood: The UsualIt’s taken me a very long time to accept this realization, but I’m willing to speak it now. Not over the phone because you don’t deserve that, even if you cared for it.
It’s that you’re cruel.
I pushed that thought all the way back behind my heart, and I put your immediate feelings and thoughts before my own. You were cruel at the most unnecessary times. You are mean to the ones that love you, and went out of your way to make me feel horrible. Never once did I pause the world to make it known that something you did was awful, or that you should change in a certain way. I laid down and took all the blows. An emotional punching bag. And in the end, you had to burn the forest down so you could escape your own reality: that you never want to admit that you can be a cruel person sometimes.
It takes so much energy and courage to say that. To admit that. That you honestly weren’t a good friend.
May the bridges I burn light the way.
I understand it now. ...Created 2021-01-05 02:20:48 |
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