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    dotsJournal: dots
    Mood: Out of touch...

    So I really haven't been on to much but only because I so dearly am in love with some one and I know that a lot of people have juged me for being what I am and quit fackly i dont care because i am actauly happy for once in my life I feel like no one could hurt me, but I kow it will not last forever but I'll try too make it work for as long as I can....

    ...Created 2010-01-16 13:01:54

    dotsJournal: ????dots
    Mood: Confused

    for the first time in a long time did i feel like i was normal like i didnt have any problem,
    But for sore that didnt last.....
    now im just sad again when will this end???

    ...Created 2009-11-21 15:05:20

    dotsJournal: WOW a pennydots
    Mood: The Usual

    If I had a penny for every time I was fucked over by a friend I'd be a 2day was ohk could have been better but its what I got so hope tomorrow will be better but who really knows?

    ...Created 2009-11-09 15:52:56

    dotsJournal: Day After Daydots
    Mood: Sad/Depressed/Happy/head ache/alone/^_^

    I just lost my best friend because she couldn't handle me calling myself emo. She got so mad at me she blocked me on msn on myspace an on facebook and when she did that I felt as if she toke my heart and stomped on it so I tried to kill myself, but obviously I didn't succeeded. So now I feel like shit. Then out of no were this girl at my school wants to be my friend and she doesn't care that I cut myself or dress weird and she's like the cool kid at my school because she's so beautiful and she's like me, but just does cut herself. and now were like really close so I guess everything happens for a reason I'm just happy it worked out for the good for once.

    ...Created 2009-11-03 16:29:54

    dotsJournal: continued......dots
    Mood: Lonely

    So I did do anything that I would regret but I did do something with other people and i don't know it is just a little weird because I feel like a slut and like nobody likes me. I feel so alone and trapped.
    Maybe it's for the better that I have no friends because so far everybody that I trusted fucked me over. So I guess what ever happens happens.

    ...Created 2009-11-01 16:15:34

    dotsJournal: Haunted housedots
    Mood: <3

    OMG! is all i can say. today i want to the haunted house wit my bff and like i didn't think that i liked him but one thing lead to another and we kinda made-out and it felt right. It was a bit weird because like after that happen we were just looking in each others eyes and I felt like in was really in love and then the rest of our friends looked at us and were like OMG what's going on over there. Now thats all I can think about. Oh snap I'm suppose to be going out wit him for halloween and getting wracked so i don't know what will happen. I'm gonna hope for the best.

    ...Created 2009-10-30 23:22:43

    dotsJournal: I wont cry.dots
    Mood: IDK

    Today my secert that i keep in side for so long that was making me sick. Well I thought that I could trust my best friend, but I was wrong. She told my teacher, my friends, my classmates, my social worker, She told everyone about my secert and now I wish I never meet her because she is missing up my whole life. If I would have known that I couldn't even trust my best friend I wold have keeped it in side, but whats done is done and I can't do anything about it. I guess I'll try to make the best of this and try not to cry because if I cry I know that she will know why and just make my life a living hell. how can I ever trust her again, but what makes it bad is that she aready knows everything because she's being my best friend since we were little kids, but I wish that she never meet me and I never meet her. I would never tell anyone about her problems and what happen to her, but she does it to me. Some fucking friend.......

    ...Created 2009-10-25 16:41:16

    dotsJournal: what a daydots
    Mood: ..........Need a new life.........

    yet i stand before my abuser he know that i told ,but yet he acts as it has never happen what the fuck is up with that. He still walks around the school like his the best looking guy there. I can still feel him in me. In school all he does is touch me. How can I make this stop. What would happen if he does it right in front of everyone? I feel like i'm gonna kill myself every time I see him. He comes to me house, His always calling me. I can't tell anyone because they wouldn't believe me. His like the coolest kid in school so why would anyone believe me that he did that to me. I'm just a loser to a lot of people because I hang-out with "emos","druggies" and "in the scene" kids and he hangs-out with the "skate boarders" and "cool" kids so who would really believe me if I did tell people? I need to get out of this life or I need a new one.

    If anyone has sumting that could help me plz leave a post......or if u have anyting to say bout this.
    just say it.

    ...Created 2009-10-19 15:16:35

    dotsJournal: WHY?dots
    Mood: idk how to feel anymore

    I don't know why i'm doing this to myself. Every time that i'm not with him i die a little it's like I need him to leave and that just makes me sick. Why i'm I doing this to my body? it's weird because without him I feel like i'm dieing, but when i'm with him he's killing me. All my friends think that his the best thing that ever happened in my life that I need a guy like him that all he does is care.( fuck if they only knew) Maybe one day he'll just stop for a sec to see what he does to me. Then maybe it will be back to how it used to be when he really did love me. now if he doesn't get what he wants then you better wish you were died. Thats why I wrote "I Don't Care So Why Sould You" I don't get why this is making me so sad that he leave's me and comes back when ever he wants. I sould just get over him but i can't because i need him.

    ...Created 2009-10-17 15:12:38

    dotsJournal: just a daydots
    Mood: sick in the head!!!

    if i knew that today i would have to face a prick i would have stayed home, but now that it passed i feel the pain come again when i thuoght that i could get away it came again and i don't know what to say about that only if my friends knew what was really going on if i were too tell them i'd be alone and thats what i don't want because i feel so power less i need a person 2 show me the way that i sould go to make me feel like a normal person not a out-cast nun of my friends understaned what i'm gonna do if i don't get help pretty soon.

    ...Created 2009-10-14 18:45:07

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