Mood: UneasyI leave at the end of the week....Created 2009-11-23 03:15:02
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Danny recently turned 20... Mikey is now 14... I feel old. My baby brothers are growing up.
Dan is joining the Air Force soon after I leave.
It's all weird.
Crazy. When you look around yourself and everything has changed. You know it was a slow progression, but you've just now stopped to take it all in. You can tell how people have really changed and you start to wonder if the young you would have liked the way you turned out.
I've seen and talked to people I used to look up to and realized that I was missing a very large portion of the picture, that their life isn't really as glamorous as I thought it was.
On to other things. I'm having a party this weekend. I hope I don't get attacked....Created 2009-11-17 19:04:33
I said, "Dad, just because I am moving to California doesn't mean I am going to become a different person. I'm going to distrust people just as much there as I do here. Wait! Maybe even more!!"
He glared at me a little.
It isn't MY fault my ex got someone else pregnant.
"Don't you get mixed up with that boy again!"
"Not that stupid, but I will keep it in mind."
Heh heh heh. 1 time 2 min thing.
FUCKIN' PRICELESS MISS GOOD. Gotta love Pee Pee Runningwater. She is the fucking bomb. Prego with twins and always a trooper. "I didn't trust him either. Told him he won't have anything to do with my kids."...Created 2009-10-26 21:21:47
It was fight night. Everyone usually drinks but because of a fucked up event I no longer drink at my sisters. Well, there were three of us sober people. Smay, Brekke, and I. The fights ended and John, Brandon, and Chad bailed. Brekke let Kevin get a little drunker then she took her man away. So what was left were very dunk Jesse, James, and Sarah, with us sober two. Sarah likes to fight when she is drunk. Slap people. Pinch/slap some junk and yadda yadda. Well, I was avoiding it, that isn't my definition of fun abuse. That's my sister, yuck. I ain't that redneck. After the attempt at a game of shuffle board Jesse decided that if the drunks wanted to keep drinking they were going to put a movie in and sit down. James and Jesse took the couch on the lower level and Smay and I took the other one.
Sister messed with the other two for a while, but I'm Bonnie Mae, she loves me. So she flops down between me and Smay. She starts messing with him, smacking and whatnot. So, he takes her arm, wraps it around her back, and puts a little pressure on it. Which, it just so happens, brings her closer to me. I had one leg propped up on the other, so my sister's face was against my leg, near my calf. AND SHE FUCKING BIT ME!! It hurt, I shoved her face away from me...
Okay, so the story isn't that interesting... my leg hurts... She also grabbed my foot. Which fucking hurt. My poor foot. So abused. It still hasn't healed from my Vegas adventures.
I am almost positively leaving for California around Thanksgiving. I've talked to my aunt and she says I won't be a burden....Created 2009-10-25 03:56:01
Mood: SillyI was sitting there with a couple buddies. Listening to their banter and realized: I really don't give a shit about half the things I've been stressing about lately. Whatever happens happens and everything happens for a reason. Sometimes it is a terrible reason, but who am I to judge? Mostly, I'm just tired of being tired.
Also, I'm a fucking retard.
There is a story I love to tell about a genius I went to school with. He is seriously smart, I almost never understood what he was talking about but I would listen anyway... because I had fun listening to him. I used to tell everyone that Nate once asked me for help. They never believed me. But it's true. He asked me for help. ME. Of all people. They usually laugh at me when I tell them what he asked for my help with and then they believe me.
You see. Nate Zaharko asked ME for help on a word search.
Oh yeah. I dominate me some word searches.
Oh. My. God. Nate Zaharko.
I miss those people I randomly hung out with in school....Created 2009-10-20 17:57:47
Mood: AwakeMeg decided that we needed to go hang with the guys(Andrew and Smay [Princess]) after she got off work. She headed this way at about 2am. Both of us knew Princess would be passed out already, he usually goes to sleep at a reasonable hour. Well, we got there, sat and talked to Andrew for a little bit, and then I went into his tiny ass bathroom. Which has Chuck Norris posters on the three walls around the toilet. I don't much like Chuck. While washing my hands I heard someone messing around in the kitchen and when I opened the bathroom door I was just in time to see Andrew shove a small stack of Saltines into his mouth. I nodded at him and raised an eyebrow, he just shrugged. Megan, at that moment, was trying to wake Smay up. She shook his shoulder, he rolled over, flipped her off, and curled back up in his blanket.
After a bit he rolled off the futon, wrapped the blanket around himself, and started rifling through the bag of goodies Meg and I brought with us. There was a Code Red and a bag of BBQ Frito Twist things of Megan's and a bottle of water and Funyuns for me. He grabbed Meg's chips, she tore them away, he tried to take her drink, she took that as well, so he grabbed my chips, opened them, and took probably the smallest crushed piece in there and ate it. I shrugged and offered him some of the lemonade Amp I was currently drinking.
Oh, before I offered him the Amp he had taken a drink of Meg's Starbucks energy drink, was disgusted, and started wiping his tongue on his blanket. Which he thought tasted better then Meg's drink. I still don't really believe him.
We all went to stand out in the garage, so the three of them could smoke, but there wasn't a whole lot of room. Andrew is working on his mom's rig, so the innards were strewn about, in an orderly fashion, and there was probably a two foot by four foot area for us to stand. Andrew almost burnt Meg's ear with his cigg and Smay, still wrapped up in his blanket, kept muttering to himself.
There was weed smoked and a little bit more smoked, because, of course, they had to smoke when it turned 4:20am. I was just sitting in Andrew's room with them, looking at the random junk he'd filled his room with. He informed me that he doesn't spend very much time in there. Princess threw a Harry Potter card at me that said Imobilus on it and told me I wasn't allowed to move. I didn't listen, since he was trying to stab my foot with a tack.
We all went out to breakfast. Andrew and I were getting retarded because neither of us had slept in a day or more. This was at about 6. After breakfast we went back to Andrew's apartment, we turned on Live Free or Die Hard, after Andrew told me to pick a genre of movies. I said Action, he looked at me funny, I said, "As long as someone dies, I'm good." Cody fell asleep first, then Meg, then Andrew. I was pretty fuckin' bored, but oh well. It's my own damn fault. I can't sleep around people. We were staying there because we decided that we wanted to go see Zombieland at 12:20pm.
I'm not sure how long I sat there awake with the title menu music as background noise.
It took forever to get everyone awake and by the time that happened it was 11:45am. Smay wasn't really awake and Andrew had flopped over on his stomach and was talking to us through the couch cushion. I said that we could always go another time and if that was the case, I wanted to go home, I was fuckin' beat and Andrew's chair had done a number to my back.
Yadda yadda yadda... Andrew's dad showed up, so he couldn't go with to the movie, because he needed his dad's help with something and his dad was going back out hunting that night. So, Meg, Princess, and I went to the movie.
It was funny.
End result: We had a conversation in which we all agreed that we could be happy while being miserable because none of us trust being happy, truly happy. We are always waiting for the bottom to drop out....Created 2009-10-17 02:37:49
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