Journal:  -------------------------------------------Mood: DepressedWell...it is still really lonely here. I am moving...to the middle of nowhere. In a way it sucks, but afterall, it is secluded, somewhat...at least i won't have to deal with the stupid ignorant people like i do in this subdivision. But i guess the worst thing is that i am forced to switch schools again and start my life over again. Every two years of my school career, i have switched schools. Forced, every time, to start over and make new friends. This time, i am just going to give up. I am not going to bother making friends...I know it is going to tear me up, but hey, i really don't know if i can get much more fucked up than i already am. I am so ashamed of who i have turned out to be. I fear now that i won't be able to change...This pain, will follow me throughout my life...
Not only am i going to go to high school, but i am going to college to. Not because i really want to...whatever i have to do to make my parens shut up.
Well, i want to say more, but like i said, i am too ashamed...
life is a bitch, and i have dealt with it. now i wonder what death would be...Paradise, i asume......Created 2005-08-02 23:20:26 |
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