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Journal: hi. -------------------------------------------Mood: The Usual I'm done with this account, I just dont know how to delete it so I deleted most of my info. I am gone now. goodbye. ...Created 2008-02-24 22:10:49

Journal: -------------------------------------------Mood: The Usual I spent a night out dancing This girls feeling better about herself. ...Created 2008-02-14 02:29:36

Journal: -------------------------------------------Mood: The Usual Everything is wrong again. ...Created 2008-02-12 16:52:12

Journal: -------------------------------------------Mood: The Usual I must have sneezed On knees I freeze I mean I just choked up Somehow I slept I dream, I mean I dreamt of nothing Able to breathe A sweet relief Now that you're here with me A northern degree Dove into me Now I'm recovering [Chorus] I only want you to see My favorite part of me And not my ugly side Not my ugly side Hook up a C.B. Wave a way For conversation flow I'm shoved in your cave, to wage this rage Don't let me go A kick and a scream is all that seems To mean a lot thus far I won't let you on my stage, my page You can't know Yet you have to know [Chorus] So calm... and now it's dark I look for you to light my heart I'm in between the moon and where you are I know... I can't be far ...Created 2008-02-06 16:26:07

Journal: -------------------------------------------Mood: The Usual Im deleting everything and I am leaving. simple as that. thank you for ruining the last place i had left. ...Created 2008-02-06 15:43:42

Journal: -------------------------------------------Mood: The Usual I love brian. I do I do I do ) ...Created 2008-02-05 21:28:09

Journal: Logan. -------------------------------------------Mood: The Usual I keep wondering when it's been time enough. Time enough to go back. We can never go back though. But when someone tells you that they need time, doesnt that mean they'll be back? I know he's worth fighting for. I know he's worth waiting for. It's just.. so hard. I mean I'm not alone obviously but actually I am. Because noone can fill the void like logan did. I hate to admit it, I hate to drag more and more guys into this.. I hate that noone compares to him. I hate that I still care. You'd think after this all I could accept that he isn't coming back.. but he DID and thats what gets me the most. And do I love brian? Do I really? He's so much different than Logan. Logan was sensitive and missed me when we were away.. and he cared and I could cry on his shoulder. Brian is cold and pretends there are no problems, he BUYS me things.. but he doesnt make me HAPPY. He also is scaring me. With Logan, I wanted a marriage and a future because I knew that I would be very happy. With Brian I'm reluctant.. He's talking about marriage? I'm feeling like running away. To be honest I read all of Logans old blogs. He used to think that of me? He thought I was the sweetest girl?I'm the same girl, just with more mistakes. Never do that though... never look at your ex's blogs.. They bring a flood of memories on.. they make you think you're still there, with them but really.. they are just trying so hard to push you the hell away.. and you cant ever get back to them, or in their heart.. Yea. It hurts. I didnt know he was grieving when I left. I didnt know he cared that much. I missed him and my phone would never work.. we didnt have the net or anything. God.. Why do "all things happen for a reason?" Maybe this is God's plan for Logan. He had to get away from me, he had to meet Leah. But what do I do? He gets his fairytale.. and I'm stuck way back when I thought I had mine. I love you still. It's not gonna go away. Remember fishing, and all the frogs in the pond, walking to that old house, to cemetaries, angelas pizza, your grandparents house, going to movies then the dollar store, when you would tell me about LoA and I always told you to write it.. The places we went.. the things we did.. I lost my best friend.. Is he ever coming back...... (no) =[[ So this is to him.. the one who had, and has my heart. Almost Lover=A fine frenzy We walked along a crowded street You took my hand and danced with me Images And when you left, you kissed my lips You told me you would never, never forget These images No Well, I'd never want to see you unhappy I thought you'd want the same for me Goodbye, my almost lover Goodbye, my hopeless dream I'm trying not to think about you Can't you just let me be? So long, my luckless romance My back is turned on you Should've known you'd bring me heartache Almost lovers always do I cannot go to the ocean I cannot drive the streets at night I cannot wake up in the morning Without you on my mind So you're gone and I'm haunted And I bet you are just fine Did I make it that Easy to walk right in and out Of my life? ...Created 2008-01-31 22:24:23

Journal: wheres romeo? -------------------------------------------Mood: The Usual I'm a sad girl in an upside down world. Everyone that once loved me is against me. It's time's like this where I wonder what the point to everything is. To my heart, to my head, to my life. What's the point? Come, gentle night, — come, loving black brow'd night, Give me my Romeo; and when he shall die, Take him and cut him out in little stars, And he will make the face of Heaven so fine That all the world will be in love with night, And pay no worship to the garish sun. Juliet, Act III, scene ii ...Created 2008-01-31 14:20:14

Journal: Over You.. -------------------------------------------Mood: Straightening things out... Daughtry.. Now that it's all said and done I can't believe you were the one To build me up and tear me down Like an old abandoned house What you said when you left Just left me cold and out of breath Fell too far, was in way too deep I guess I let you get the best of me Well I never saw it coming I should of started running A long long time ago And I never thought I'd doubt you I'm better off without you More than you, More than you know I'm slowly getting closure I guess it's really over I'm finally getting better Now I'm picking up the pieces and spending all of these years Putting my heart back together The day I thought I'd never get through I got over you! You took a hammer to these walls dragged the memories down the hall Packed your bags and walked away There was nothing I could say When you slammed the front door shut A lot of others opened up So did my eyes so I could see That you never were the best for me Well I never saw it coming I should of started running A long long time ago And I never thought I'd doubt you I'm better off without you More than you More than you know I'm slowly getting closure [Over You lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com] I guess it's really over I'm finally getting better Now I'm picking up the pieces And spending all of these these years Putting my heart back together It's a day I thought I'd never get through I got over you Well I never saw it coming I should of started running A long long time ago And I never thought I'd doubt you I'm better off without you More than you, More than you know Well I never saw it coming I should of started running A long long time ago And i never thought I'd doubt you I'm better off without you More than you, More than you know I'm slowly getting closure I guess it's really over I'm finally getting better Now I'm picking up the pieces and spending all of these years Putting My heart back together Oh Ooooooh! Now I'm putting my heart back together! oh Ooooooooh! Cause I got over you! I got over you! I got over you! It's a day I thought I'd never get through I got over you ...Created 2008-01-31 12:05:21

Journal: -------------------------------------------Mood: The Usual There's a devil in my head an angel in my bed thats getting colder. I try to warm it up with the only way I know. There's something inside, I think that I should tell her. Cause its about that time I let her know. And he says come with me I'll show you my way To a place where all the devils go Days and days go by, I tell myself a lie, I'm getting older I need to slow it down but the way I don't know And the devil inside telling me in order, To ever feel life, I got to let her go And he says come with me I'll show you my way To a place where all the devils go No more pain, no more lies, and no more worries Its a place where all the devils go And I feel cold, and so alone Cause I don't know, which way to turn And I feel like I'm getting weaker Cause I can't ever take control Can't ever take control A devil in my head an angel in my bed its getting colder I can not, I will not let her go She says come with me I'll show you my way To place where all the angels go No more pain, no more lies, no more worries Its a place where all true lovers go She says come with me I'll show you my way To place where all the angels go ...Created 2008-01-28 01:40:43