Journal: How Strange -------------------------------------------
Mood: Thinking...You know,
I have been away from this site for years. A feeling is returning to me I don't even remember missing. Yet I do, very much I do. How selfish was I as I wander through my past thoughts. Gratitude something shrouded from me. So much I have now. Yet so much I have forgotten.
As I sit with my daughter reading of the past a thought occurs to me. A thought that freezes me to my very soul. How do I show her she is loved. Truly loved. Knowing you do and showing another is after all our problem....Created 2016-07-02 08:44:33
Mood: RelaxingUbuntu OS 10.10 rules. Can't believe they give you so much for free. anyone that likes seeing something new I say give it a try if your brave. I'm loving it more and more everyday. Specially the dock apps ;)...Created 2011-01-30 17:13:46
Journal: Fixin PC -------------------------------------------
Mood: Stressedlol I get off work and what is the first thing I hear. "Hey Lila's computer isn't working with this can you help me fix it. Sure I'll just make myself Admin and fix it from here from now on.
Wouldn't be so bad if I didn't do that all the time....Created 2009-07-11 11:26:55
Mood: Frustratedgoodbye old man. Nikki's grandfather died the other day. He'll be missed. They wouldn't let her brother out for the funeral though. Her gran was really sad. Said nothing would ever be the same. I can't blame her.
Mood: The UsualWell looks like the VA in Nashville again.. this time it'll be a go live though.. should be fun i just finished saint Mary's North in Knoxville.. that was huge.. now they are talking about remotes for everything ahh well...Created 2007-07-08 19:42:37
Mood: The UsualNashville for the end of my week it looks like.. hmm.. hopefully i'll be out by 12 noon tommoro..
Josh and Christi split.. he said she was to bitchy.. sigh.. she been upset all day.. Nikki bought her a rose to make her feel a bit better.. bastard even took the dishes.. but hey he said he'd come home tonight lol.. wish i was there to see all the shit breaking over his head.. not my battle to fight though.. people gotta deal with shit themselves or they leave a stinky mess for everyone else.....Created 2007-06-29 21:12:01
i'll be closing on the house supposedly next friday the 29th.. that'll be good.. we'll finally own a piece of earth.. lol guess i can look forward to cutting the grass anyway.. tommoro is my birthday.. it should be fun.. 21.. least i don't have to deal with that anymore.. personally i think if your old enough to pay taxes you should be old enough to do everything else but whatever.. i guess it doesn't matter now.. i'm looking forward to moving in more than i am my birthday.. the place is going together pretty good now..
Mood: Frustratedstrange how quickly things can change.. another hotel window to stare out of.. this time it was in Camden, Martin, and Memphis TN.. 5 miles away from the "old friend" yet i suppose it better to leave it be.. she has no reason to believe me.. though it annoys me how easily people can be decieved..
sigh.. have you ever considered why Nikki isn't pregnant yet Ella.. i don't care what he told you i can tell you what the doctor told her.. he took more than just her dignity away.. i wonder how you would feel if your "old friend" said you were lying while you bled in front of her.. perhaps it's easier to abandon someone that has done nothing more than love you than to admit your new best friend is in his own words while drunk "the direct decendent of Kain"..
open your eyes..
...Created 2007-06-05 13:39:08
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