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dotsJournal: oh noesdots
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Mood: Updating my information

It won't let me update my basic information, but I have had this account since I was 16, I am now 27 so it has been 11 years I have been on here and boy has it been a ride! I haven't added a lot of my more recent poetry but it's a lot more light hearted and optimistic now :-)

...Created 2015-12-27 04:48:48

dotsJournal: Wow..dots
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Mood: Relaxing

I have had this account since I was 16! Long time ago! I miss writing so I PROMISE I will put some new stuff up soon!

...Created 2007-02-06 21:53:12

dotsJournal: dots
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Mood: Dead

...Created 2005-07-13 12:42:43

dotsJournal: Wowdots
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Mood: Thinking...

Last Night....Wow....I can't stop thinking...I am changing, and I feel it...I am loving more than hating...... I feel like just laying in the wet grass and staring at the beautiful blue skies, thinking of the most beautiful eyes I have ever seen... I am so in love right now....

Landslide
Stevie Nicks 1975


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I took my love, I took it down
Climbed a mountain and I turned around
I saw my reflection in the snow covered hills
'Till the landslide brought me down

Oh, mirror in the sky
What is love
Can the child within my heart rise above
Can I sail through the changing ocean tides
Can I handle the seasons of my life

Well, I've been afraid of changing
'Cause I've built my life around you
But time makes you get bolder
Even children get older
And I'm getting older too

Oh, take my love, take it down
Climb a mountain and turn around
If you see my reflection in the snow covered hills
Well the landslide will bring it down

If you see my reflection in the snow covered hills
Well the landslide will bring it down.

...Created 2005-07-05 13:14:59

dotsJournal: Me Derrumbodots
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Mood: Relaxing

For an odd reason I find this song beautiful. I even know what it means....(I sing along to it too lmao)

ME DERRUMBO

Yo quise imaginar
que sabría esperar
engañándome sin mas
siento tanta soledad
que no veo ya el final
de esta eterna ansiedad
por que sin tu amor me derrumbo
soy solo carne y huesos yo sin ti
no me salvare esperándote
un minuto sin tu amor
es un infierno en mi interior
y me derrumbo.

La distancia entre los dos
hace fuerte nuestro amor
sin olvido ni rencor
por favor que acabe pronto esta pesadilla cruel
que hace perder mi control
por que sin tu amor
me derrumbo
soy solo carne y huesos yo sin ti
no me salvare esperándote
un minuto sin tu amor
es un infierno en mi interior
Y me derrumbo
y me consume sin quedar
pensar que un día volverás
sentir tu piel
y abrazar todo tu ser
y me derrumbo
soy solo carne y huesos yo sin ti
no me salvare esperándote
un minuto sin tu amor es un infierno en mi interior
y me derrumbo

ooooo......

...Created 2005-06-30 21:27:41

dotsJournal: JustAnotheRantdots
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Mood: Just Hungry

I have been longing for company long gone, I suppose I lost contact with dear friends too soon. I remember hot summer's that seemed so short, but every moment I spent in them was the best I ever had. I guess everyone has a little bit of Nostalgia.....longing for something that will never be as great as it was or that is impossible to happen. It's kind of sad when I walk into the college campus eager to get to my Freshman Seminar class....I just like to breathe in knowledge and exhale it on to someone else. A philosophy that has never been seen or sought. I remember childhood nicknames in school....Smoo, Booger, Wildthing, etc. I never thought that I would recieve a nickname in college, let alone one that doesn't make sense to me haha. My newest nickname is "The Brain".... an older person in my FS class(Trina) gave it to me because I always add useless, yet entertaining facts about theories and things. She uses me as an example to her daughter that she can succeed as I am doing. *sigh* I am honestly starting to miss being a kid without a care....I used to be a tomboy that ran around with wild tangled hair, a dirty face, and I was very sporty.... because I didn't care what other people thought, but now I worry about one pimple, I always question if I have something in my teeth, or on my butt, or even in my hair. I hate subliminal magazine ad's targeting young naive girls (such like myself) I want to be beautiful.......I don't have anything to make up for my lack of such.... my personality is a nagging bore.....I can't believe that anyone can find me the least bit attractive.... I admire Travis for his intellect, and sensitivity... he is so handsome with his morbid charm, and creativity....he is just there for me and wants me to know more about him...I just wish he could see how much he is worth to anyone that walks into his life...he is a person I will never forget, and I just hope that I wont ever have to..... I will always love him...Words can't ever ammount to what I can say about my deep love for him.....Emily, wow she has always been there for me to talk about everything from hair-death, I can't believe how much someone can trust me like she does...she would trust me with her life..sometimes though I pity how naive she is to "the real world." she is always buried in a book.......Yesenia, my other soul sister, she took me in when I was the outcast of RHS....well I kind of stalked her at first haha.. she hated me, but I was persistant until she finally found that I had more to offer than intruding footsteps and invasive foreshadowing...though she can be bossy I would give my life for hers....As for all of the guys in my life that have broken my heart, I would like to thank them for the experience and knowledge they have given me, I have matured in a different way, each time they pushed me off the edge I found a new way back up again.... It hurts, and I don't mean a little bit I mean nearly unbearable, but when I see the people who know just what to say I forget about the pain and just smile... Thanks to everyone who I have had the pleasure to meet or even just see on t.v. or on the streets.....you have given me the insight of another's world......another's pain......another's happiness... I enjoy everyones kind words, and sharing of what they feel.....

...Created 2005-06-23 15:03:04

dotsJournal: Baby Borndots
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Mood: Straightening things out...

*sigh* I guess I feel a bit better today....I have been at the hospital for 2 days visiting my cousin....she FINALLY had her baby...adorable little thing...6 lbs 15oz....19 1/2 inches.....Her name is Jamie Lynn(though the baby is cute....im sorry to say that name I don't like) Black hair, Blue eyes, and a dimple on her cheek.....HOW CUTE!!!

...Created 2005-06-18 13:42:16

dotsJournal: Unlovingdots
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Mood: Ugh... I hate my life.

It seems as though I have lost myself....
I have lost myself in a whirlwind of thoughts....
Consumed in haunting images of a future unwanted....
I will never be a good girlfriend for I haven't the time.....
I will never be able to sulk in my muse and create something new again.....
I lack personality....I am fading away into the place where most business people stay...overwhelmed with data, and business like matters....
I don't know who I am anymore....
Sometimes...I don't want to........
I forget what I live for....
Why don't I just....
fall over and...
sleep eternally......
away from sorrow...
run away with my dreams
....
that seem more realistic than life.....
I love....
but
I am hated...
hated by time...
hated by.....me....
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......Please..........
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Forget.......Who......
........I.........was.
Don't sigh with frustration....
because soon I wont be here....


...Created 2005-06-15 11:33:50

dotsJournal: Love Declareddots
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Mood: In Love

I dedicate this classic love letter
written by the second presidents
wife (Abigail Adams) to someone who has been there for me in rough times....
you know who you are, need I tell everyone....
yes I shall (Travis)

My Dearest Friend,

...should I draw you the picture of
my heart it would be what I hope
you would still love though
it contained nothing new.
The early possession you obtained
there, and the absolute
power you have obtained over it
, leaves not the smallest space
unoccupied.

I look back to the early days
of our acquaintance and friendship
as to the days of love and innocence,
and, with an indescribable pleasure,
I have seen near a score of years
roll over our heads with an
affection heightened and improved
by time, nor have the dreary
years of absence in the smallest
degree effaced from my mind the
image of the dear untitled man
to whom I gave my heart.
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>

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I (^ Heart ^) You
deeply Travis..... that emoticon heart
looks ok now but you never know once you submit......I will correct it if so......

My heart bleeds wine that has drugged me with your love...
leaving the butterflies
fluttering faster with every word
that spills from your lips....

Sorry I lack originality
right now..... :oS

Love Always,
Sammy Sue


...Created 2005-06-09 12:54:46

dotsJournal: An Open Bookdots
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Mood: Thinking...

"Have you ever bought a beautiful, shiny apple only to bite it and discover it's all mushy? Take that lesson to heart. Don't assume that appearance is all that matters."

I have a cummulative amount of friends that have beautiful souls....you don't need looks to be true to yourself. I feel heartbreak whenever a stranger passes judgement on a person based on their appearance...it is unfair and cruel.

...Created 2005-05-31 11:35:04