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    Mood: The Usual

    im done with eliteskills
    have fun LiLi
    i hope all goes well with you and your little girl
    dunno how to delete it but im not coming back on
    so good bye to everyone.

    <3.Sarah.

    ...Created 2006-08-22 19:38:42

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    Mood: The Usual

    mmm mmm mmm
    One while year
    Next week
    I'm surprised as I look back
    So many things are different
    With everyone
    I mean I haven't seen a bajillion people
    I haven't talked to so many more
    It's unreal how much can change in just one year
    not to mention how mucuh you can change in one year
    for example a year ago I was eage
    6 months ago I was pissed
    now I'm just like whatever
    I hope i get to see everyone i haven't pretty soon
    with some exceptions

    ...Created 2006-07-27 19:03:33

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    Mood: The Usual

    eh.
    so much drama
    I'm sick of it
    fuck highschool
    online after this year
    oh well
    I will finish though
    I"m determined

    ...Created 2006-04-09 18:16:19

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    Mood: The Usual

    does his control of my life give me the control of his?

    ...Created 2006-03-08 13:39:08

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    Mood: The Usual

    i need a cigarette
    or human contact
    or a word uttered my way
    or for me to speak
    is it pathetic when you have only spoken one word in an entire day?
    just because there was no one at all to speak to?
    or does everyone do it and it only really botheres me

    hrmmm.

    ...Created 2006-02-11 17:23:46

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    Mood: The Usual

    hard to remember what a different person I was when I came here to elite. It's been over a year now and I'm truly astonished at the things i said, did, and never thought I would make it through. wow. It's like New Years or something lol....

    ...Created 2006-02-03 15:29:03

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    Mood: Tired

    school
    another hour of this crap
    eww eww

    ...Created 2006-02-03 13:40:09

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    Mood: Thinking...

    Everything is fine
    and yet I still find it in me to complain.
    What's wrong with me?
    I'm scared half to death
    When I know I'll get through it
    So why am I worried?
    Is the fact that I have to tell?
    That I HAVE to be the one who sits her down
    and says that her dreams for me have been crushed
    Is that what scares me?
    Or is it the look on her face
    The look she'll give me when she knows who I am
    and what I've done to be here?
    Will she then believe what my cousins hinted at?
    Will she know that the stories of drugs, alcohol, and cigarettes are true?
    That the long weekends and tired Mondays and random vomitting are due to the life I led?
    Or is it how she'll treat me after?
    How she'll look at me when I'm with him?
    Is it that I know she'll never want me to be around him again?
    That when this is finally over it will never be over?
    Or the fact that we finally got on our feet and my choice is going to knock us off again?
    I've been the cause of her trouble before
    and I remember how she looked at me back then
    before all the jobs
    and before all the money I gave her for bills
    I remember how she looked at me when we had no home because I was the reason she couldn't get a man to take care of her.
    Am I going to go back to those blank stares, late nights, empty stomachs, and tears of hatred?
    I hope not.
    I'll leave if I have to....
    I don't know where I'll go
    or what I'll do to get there
    but I'll leave.
    I will.
    BUt why don't I believe that I will?
    Is it because no matter how bad she treats me I'll stay?
    Because of Robin
    THat's why
    Because that's what she did and I can't do that
    Even though I can't bear the looks
    I also can't bear the lack of them
    Because I can imagine the tears she'll shed when I'm missing.....
    and it hurts so bad either way.
    Maybe I won't tell her
    and I'll just leave.
    Maybe she isn't worth the trouble.
    After all I'm allowed to now.
    But I have no money, no job, and no place to go...
    I'm so without.
    But I have so much.

    9 weeks.
    It has a face.

    <33

    ...Created 2006-02-03 13:37:28

    dotsJournal: dots
    -------------------------------------------
    Mood: Thinking...

    Everything is fine
    and yet I still find it in me to complain.
    What's wrong with me?
    I'm scared half to death
    When I know I'll get through it
    So why am I worried?
    Is the fact that I have to tell?
    That I HAVE to be the one who sits her down
    and says that her dreams for me have been crushed
    Is that what scares me?
    Or is it the look on her face
    The look she'll give me when she knows who I am
    and what I've done to be here?
    Will she then believe what my cousins hinted at?
    Will she know that the stories of drugs, alcohol, and cigarettes are true?
    That the long weekends and tired Mondays and random vomitting are due to the life I led?
    Or is it how she'll treat me after?
    How she'll look at me when I'm with him?
    Is it that I know she'll never want me to be around him again?
    That when this is finally over it will never be over?
    Or the fact that we finally got on our feet and my choice is going to knock us off again?
    I've been the cause of her trouble before
    and I remember how she looked at me back then
    before all the jobs
    and before all the money I gave her for bills
    I remember how she looked at me when we had no home because I was the reason she couldn't get a man to take care of her.
    Am I going to go back to those blank stares, late nights, empty stomachs, and tears of hatred?
    I hope not.
    I'll leave if I have to....
    I don't know where I'll go
    or what I'll do to get there
    but I'll leave.
    I will.
    BUt why don't I believe that I will?
    Is it because no matter how bad she treats me I'll stay?
    Because of Robin
    THat's why
    Because that's what she did and I can't do that
    Even though I can't bear the looks
    I also can't bear the lack of them
    Because I can imagine the tears she'll shed when I'm missing.....
    and it hurts so bad either way.
    Maybe I won't tell her
    and I'll just leave.
    Maybe she isn't worth the trouble.
    After all I'm allowed to now.
    But I have no money, no job, and no place to go...
    I'm so without.
    But I have so much.

    9 weeks.
    It has a face.

    <33

    ...Created 2006-02-03 13:37:28

    dotsJournal: dots
    -------------------------------------------
    Mood: Thinking...

    Everything is fine
    and yet I still find it in me to complain.
    What's wrong with me?
    I'm scared half to death
    When I know I'll get through it
    So why am I worried?
    Is the fact that I have to tell?
    That I HAVE to be the one who sits her down
    and says that her dreams for me have been crushed
    Is that what scares me?
    Or is it the look on her face
    The look she'll give me when she knows who I am
    and what I've done to be here?
    Will she then believe what my cousins hinted at?
    Will she know that the stories of drugs, alcohol, and cigarettes are true?
    That the long weekends and tired Mondays and random vomitting are due to the life I led?
    Or is it how she'll treat me after?
    How she'll look at me when I'm with him?
    Is it that I know she'll never want me to be around him again?
    That when this is finally over it will never be over?
    Or the fact that we finally got on our feet and my choice is going to knock us off again?
    I've been the cause of her trouble before
    and I remember how she looked at me back then
    before all the jobs
    and before all the money I gave her for bills
    I remember how she looked at me when we had no home because I was the reason she couldn't get a man to take care of her.
    Am I going to go back to those blank stares, late nights, empty stomachs, and tears of hatred?
    I hope not.
    I'll leave if I have to....
    I don't know where I'll go
    or what I'll do to get there
    but I'll leave.
    I will.
    BUt why don't I believe that I will?
    Is it because no matter how bad she treats me I'll stay?
    Because of Robin
    THat's why
    Because that's what she did and I can't do that
    Even though I can't bear the looks
    I also can't bear the lack of them
    Because I can imagine the tears she'll shed when I'm missing.....
    and it hurts so bad either way.
    Maybe I won't tell her
    and I'll just leave.
    Maybe she isn't worth the trouble.
    After all I'm allowed to now.
    But I have no money, no job, and no place to go...
    I'm so without.
    But I have so much.

    9 weeks.
    It has a face.

    <33

    ...Created 2006-02-03 13:37:27

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    It means a lot to them, as it does to you.


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