Mood: Dead SexyI have no idea what Iím saying right now. But I think somethingís off.
All day, somethingís been weird.
I had a dream about my dead dog.
Iíve been listening to ĎThe Usedí, all day long.
I got suspended for defending my self at school.
I finally admitted to being submissive in a relationship.
I started a race of ĎFagsí.
I started crying for no reason--
And, I donít even cry; well thatís a lie.
But still, I donít cry just randomly.
So it was really weird, when I felt tears graze my cheeks.
I donít really understand my body; and all of the things it does.
Kind of amazing really, the way it can surprise you.
The way it can work with your emotions.
Iím not sad.
Iím not happy--
Iím content with my life as it is right now.
Iíd like to list all the bad things;
But just one person makes it so right.
If this Is love?
What kind of love is this?
Iím in a state of denial, because Iím afraid.
I donít want to be in love.
Iíve been down that road, the fucking rocky one.
Got scars to prove it.
Iím starting to realize you canít hide an emotion like that or block it off completely.
Really? Am I really fucking in love with you?
Are you serious?
I donít want this. I donít need this.
I need to lock away my emotions and never look at them again. Never even glance at the curses.
Iím not perfect, hell no.
But everything isnít my fault.
It doesnít seem to matterÖbut every relationship I always slink intoÖ.whatever happens is my faultÖ
Is that even fair?
Can no one else suck in pride and take blame?
I refuse to say it.
Because I wonít.
No, fuck no.
No, No No No No No!
Shut the fuck up, Iím not.
I can feel the tears again.
Iím so in love. Fuck!
Mood: Brain FriedKaden: i hit my knee.
Kaden: and it hurt
jonathanchristopher69: Im sorry?
Kaden: You should be.
jonathanchristopher69: Id kiss it better.
jonathanchristopher69: but thats kinda hard.
Kaden: oh! okay!
Kaden: no, kiss it.
jonathanchristopher69: *Bends down and kisses his knee all better*
Kaden: *knee rapes you*
Kaden is typing...
Kaden: idek....Created 2010-03-24 20:42:55