Mood: Straightening things out...Well, I guess this is farewell. I have to say that I have learned alot here and I am grateful for all the new people that I have met here. I will miss some more than others.
I find that I am starting a new chapter in my life and I hope that it will be just as rewarding as the last chapter was.
Friends are hard to come by and I will always remember the ones I have found here.
It is time to say goodbye but I will pop in from time to time to look in on you. If you need to contact me then my email address is firstname.lastname@example.org.
I found that when my daughters left home that I could no longer write from the heart and I need to take some time to figure out what I want to do. Times have changed and I have for some reason become bitter to all the things I enjoyed so much. Maybe this chapter of my life will find me some measure of peace.
To all who has read and commented on my writes I wish you a wonderful life with the hope that all your hopes and dreams come true.
Remember that when you desire something it may not be what you need. Look for the good in everyone and if you cannot find it then you have forgotten to look within yourself. Everyone needs to be loved and respect will always return to you if you in turn give it to others.
Mood: I don't give a shitWhat is it about children leaving home to become.
I find that these day my daughters and I have come to an impass and have lost our voices to communicate. It bothers me but I find that I can not find a happy medium. We argue all the time and now we have decided that we no longer need to talk to each other.
I being the stubborn one cannot find a way to correct this. I would like to but I find I don't care at this particular time. It does hurt but when I am hurt my reaction is always anger.
I wonder what will become of us and I wonder if this will ever get better.
I guess I will just have to keep wondering and go about life. F**k it...Created 2007-10-23 21:08:58
Mood: StressedDidou ever have the feeling of mistrust for someone who you know but just can't find a reason to like or trust them. I have this feeling about a young man whom I will not name but I cannot seem to bring myself to trust him.
Over the years I have made my living off of reading people and for the most part I have been correct. So I think that I am correct here.
The probl;em is that if I choose to express myself about this person then I would be hurting someone whom I love dearly.
So, I am writing this down here so that I don't say what I really want to say to this young man.
Does this make me a bad person? I really struggle with this and for the life of me I cannot think of a reason why I should dislike this person so much.
He has never done anything to me except try too hard to make me like him. Maybe that is the reason. I feel he is not being himself but then again how many people can be themselves around me.
I give up. I can't change my feelings so I will just ignore him and wait it out.
I dislike this person so much that If the choice to be violent was an option I would choose violence.
I really need to get my head around this before it consumes me....Created 2007-10-03 22:59:58
Mood: Thinking...We grow in spirit and in body even when we choose to stand still and let others go by.
If we choose to travel alone then there will be no one to celebrate the end of the journey with...Created 2007-08-21 13:35:39
Mood: Sigh...Life seems to throw as curves from every directions at times. Being a good catcher doesn't make it any easier but learning to accept that we are human does.
If you have done your best and feel good about it then no one can make you feel like you haven't.
Giving anything less then your best is not only cheating yourself but cheating those who depend on you.
Just a little lesson I learned here not to long ago.
Mood: Sigh...We go through life with blinders on hoping that someone will guide us but we find that they also have blinders on too.
My daughter Stacey has so many times quoted from a favorite line I too will use it today.
We never get too old to laugh, we get old because we forget to laugh.
My daughters are moving on these days and find that I am lost at times without them. I often say that I am there for them but I know that they have always been there for me and I just didn't take the time to realize it.
Now that they are grown I find that as I was raising them they were in fact raising me too.
To my Twins Stacey and Tracy I would like to say that I am still learning and I am gratefull for what you have taught me over the years. Wisdom is not learning something new but accepting that you always will need to learn something new.