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Mood: The Usual

...Created 2021-05-14 12:09:06

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Mood: The Usual

in your spiritual well
you sing heaven and hell
when only time will tell
who stood or who fell

god exists in what dimension
even a man with poor education
can ask the right questions
but what is worth it to mention

directions point north
but a compass can be broken
can you really be so sure
beliefs preach in polar opposites

fuck your great divides
we are divine on both sides
being lit by human lights
with varying degrees of sight

...Created 2020-12-04 00:03:27

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Mood: The Usual

bigger than me
it might all be a dream
if i dare not to notice
will you take it from me

scared as i am
i have hardly a plan
for the roads i've imagined
for the cognative damage

much like before
it's a thought to explore
with no code to decipher
and no reason for more

is there truth to this nightmare
vanilla as it might be
enough to root my convictions
to the floor of my beliefs

...Created 2020-11-23 14:19:56

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Mood: The Usual

...Created 2020-11-13 22:17:04

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Mood: The Usual

...Created 2020-10-15 15:34:10

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Mood: The Usual

i have devoted my life to this
planning every port every proxy
somewhere deep in the middle of it
I'm still working out an algorithm,
to tell me how to process what i feel
now that i know how much of it was real

I can't imagine myself another place in it
it was a pleasant fantasy to start out with
everything now is figures and markets
net worth against inflation
my life is the investment

it was easier to be careless before
responsibility means
i can't drag my feet on the floor

I've got overhead concerns about charity
calculating the most logical form of morality
money you've earned isn't money to burn
so I'm left to imagine what a billionaire needs

i don't need a maid while I'm young
i don't need security if i remain anonymous
if i change my mind about these things
i can change my lifestyle, I'll have enough

i look in the mirror and all i can see
is what i imagine, modeling society
as it's modeling me

...Created 2020-10-15 15:33:17

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Mood: The Usual

i want to step forward two years
cuz all of this waiting is bullshit
i understand that i don't have a choice
but i wish i did regardless.

it seems cruel to leave me hanging
by a thread that you could pull
instead I'm left deciding
what is or isn't meaningful

i'm not full of rage
or any more insane than i would be
but it doesn't make a fuck load of sense
and i've had my full to speak honestly

...Created 2020-10-09 23:45:56

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Mood: The Usual

i can not craft a metaphor to make you understand
there are things in my life that i didn't mean to plan
if i knew the answers i would share them all the time
but the truth would make no difference if i put it in the light

i try to be a poet like my words are meaningful
but the life i live is small and i am unrelatable
so all i have to hold is my own brand of delusion
masking all the make believe with cognitive distortions

...Created 2020-09-25 22:56:42

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Mood: The Usual

maybe one day i'll see the solution
but for now the problem seems like delusion
pulled out like teeth
my brain is full of cavaties

...Created 2020-09-22 21:59:46

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Mood: The Usual

...Created 2020-09-03 15:29:43