|Journal: My son|
-------------------------------------------Mood: So proud of you...I thought about writing you this letter many times before. When you were born.... I had the privilege to be there. I saw how hard it was for mommy and I wanted to show both of you all the love and support in the world.
After we brought you home from the hospital, I would let mommy hold you all night and i would wake up really early to hold you in the mornings. You were just a few months old and would sleep with me on the couch while I cuddled you in the blanket.
You have always been so independent. Simply had your bottle and you would go to sleep without any hesitation or work.
I watched as you grew up so fast... when we moved from Texas to Florida, you wore your first Halloween costume.... which was a lion outfit. We thought was so adorable. At one year you would sit next to so many stuffed animals and looked like one of them. So cuddly and chubby cheeks.
I want to tell you ever memory I have of you because each one is so important to me. You and mommy and journey are my reason to live. My love, my joy and my purpose.
I try so hard to be better and to work hard so that you never have to suffer or struggle. Even while I know I can't protect you forever. I just want you to know how much you mean to me. You have always been loved from day 1... and I have and will always be proud of you no matter what. Even when you make mistakes or acted in any way i don't like, you are still my first baby boy. I'm so proud of you and always will be.
The greatest joy I have is holding you in my arms because to me.... you are a part of me.
I will never doubt what you can become and I hope that through my life you realize that anything is possible.
All I ask is that you keep God as your compass and that you look to his word for guidance so that you will never go astray.
I love you my son!
To: Andres Sebastian Blandon
From your dad: Andres Mauricio Blandon...Created 2017-10-10 21:01:16
|Journal: 'Oh Lord'|
-------------------------------------------Mood: Too much at once...I was listening to a song by NF called 'oh Lord' while I ran today... something I have not done in so long. I need a change, and I need to pick my self up and keep moving forward. It's been a hard week, with no days off at work. So many suffering, so many tragedies. Hurricane Harvey hitting Texas, Wild fires on the west coast of the US, and now Irma. Not to mention katia in Mexico and an earthquake over 8.0 magnitude.... so easy to get caught up in "circumstances". I have moved past the victim mentallity and reached a victorious mindset. Instead of doubting and feeling as if everything is out of my control, I will try harder.
Today I read in the news about Ace O'Connor that passed away a few days ago while he traveled to see the lunar eclipse in NC. today I was asked about my brother, who had recently passed away, from a drug overdose. It's easy to see and feel the pain and the injustice of life, but playing the victim will get us nowhere.
I want to remember others with joy, I want to celebrate life and I wanted to honor the fallen. On 9/11 I realized that we have not forgotten our past, my past. Struggles from our past are intended to mold our future. I embrace my pain and struggle as the reason and the fuel to move forward. To live life with gratitude and teach my children to be grateful for what they have. A life with meaning, purpose and love.
Do you see us down here oh Lord? Its not enough to get by, when we were born and molded to be great.
...Created 2017-09-11 23:21:09
|Journal: Future is now|
-------------------------------------------Mood: PassionateMy first regret... I was in middle school and I wanted to play soccer. So my coach said if we did cross country he would let us play in the school soccer team. So the first meet against other schools, I ran and I ran as much as I could.
Right before I got to the end, I felt tired and my motivation was gone. I let my self get beat because I did not care to win that much. I saw the people shouting and saying "come on... your almost done".
but I stopped running because I didn't see the finish line was just around the corner. It was so close, but I thought it was so far....
I didn't try my best.
I didn't push my self.
How often do we start working towards something and it seems so far away? we think what we do now will not matter or wont make a difference? but its always just a matter of time. More often than not, things will happen sooner than we are expecting.
What happened that day, was the guy that was running behind me knew he could pass me before then end. It was not that he was faster than me, but that I stopped trying. HE did not beat me, but I beat myself. Never Again will I stop until I reach my goals! No matter how long it takes, and no matter how hard it is....
The second lesson that I learned was when I was in College. I always hated school and studying and doing things that I don't want to do. yet after serving 10 years in the military, and watching people die and suffer around me. I got tired of sacrificing without having what I wanted and without reaching my goals. I was working for my boss, but not for my self.
When we do things that we don't want to do, but we don't do it for our selves or for our purpose, it becomes a great burden. Work without purpose is a burden.
But when we do the things that we don't want to do, for our selves and for the people that we love, it becomes full of purpose. There is a why!
So i got out of the military and I had just gotten married that year. About to have a baby, I started looking for work. I remember I filled out over 60 different applications for jobs all over the country in my field.
From 60 applications I got 3 interviews. From those 3, 2 said sorry because you don't have a degree... the other said we can give you a job but its going to pay less than what you needed to support my family.
That moment I realized that to provide for my family (My purpose, My why) I had to get a degree. So I took out the student loans to pay for our cost of living. All I knew is that I had to do whatever it took to make it happen (Singleness of purpose). It took me 2 years to get a 4 year degree.
I could have stopped but I was not OK with JUST getting a job, I wanted the salary that I could be comfortable to provide for my children. So I continued to study and received a masters degree in 12 months. I had an idea of a salary that I was happy with to start working...
and not only did I meet that salary but I was offered $20k over that salary to start working. I achieved my goals up to that point!
what could you do with an extra 20k per year? How much faster could you pay off your student loans? or how much quicker can you pay off your house? or type of car would you have if you made 20k more per year? how much more could you give to your church or provide help for those in need? To give to a good cause and can you make a difference?
I learned to do the things that I did not want to do, so that I could achieve the things that I wanted to achieve. I learned to have a great work ethic, to sacrifice, to educate my self. THE GRIND... Its not about winning, its about working hard to have a better quality of life! We don't always get what we want, but we always get what we work for...
what are you working for? are you working to be in better health? to get a six pack? to get that degree? to get that promotion? to make your business successful?
Things are not handed to you freely! no one will hand you a raise or a check for things you did not do! but people will stand in awe of the things you accomplish. Don't be afraid to put in the work... to have a better marriage, or a better family. To raise you kids right by spending more time with them, teaching them better. Don't be afraid to network and socialize and push every day! Don't be afraid to wake up early and go to work before you are supposed to... if you want that raise and you want to succeed!
You owe yourself and you pay yourself what your worth.
what do you want?
The WHO is you!
The WHAT is your goal!
THE WHY is your purpose!
The HOW is the Grind!
The WHEN is until...(it happens)!
Thanks to Eric Thomas for his heart and his inspiration!
Thank God for everything else, for it is because of his love that all things are possible.
...Created 2016-04-08 11:15:13
|Journal: What happened?|
-------------------------------------------Mood: The UsualI sit here nearly at the top of the world. Having accomplished many great things, and having all that I could need. Looking back and wondering how I could have helped you up from where you are. The thoughts of a future, a legacy, that seem to come to a reality. How can such a thing be a burden... why choose not to live for a purpose? That is all we have. Most people believe that its love that keeps us alive... but now I know that its simply not enough without a purpose. So tell me, did you hold on to your purpose, to your legacy and your new born?...Created 2015-08-31 07:45:59
|Journal: awwwww :)|
-------------------------------------------Mood: Fulfilled/completeI cant believe I ever stopped pursuing the influence of music in my life. I love God and I love my life!
Gratitude and contentment are only a choice away. All struggles are not gone and all problems are not solved, but I choose to be free and separate from the circumstances in life. Moving forward without the baggage that I held for so long. I thought my condition of depression is over... maybe this is my temporary high of a bipolar condition... lol. Jk
I thought for a long time that I struggled in ways because of the cards I was dealt in life. I would limit my self and my experience because I thought less of my self instead of more. I don't walk around with wounds or scars. I moved beyond that, I changed my mistakes and misfortunes to lessons learned to help me grow. I am victorious! The rest of my goals in life are only a matter of time!
Listening to *Soundwave by Rehab* on repeat... repeat... repeat. Truly recommend for everyone to check it out and make a positive, feel good play list.
Positivity creates a domino effect for all other parts of our life. ...Created 2014-12-05 19:18:36
|Journal: woo can write..|
-------------------------------------------Mood: The UsualI love the new you... I love the new me... It is all well as far as I can see. The things I should have said, "merry christmas, happy new year!" although it might be too late. I come here when I miss you, when I think about your life, when I think about the past, the goods and bads and those that are not. the things I think about, the lives we did not choose. how far is that uncertain future... that phone I never get to use. The reason why I cant talk its because there is a new me and a new you. ILU...Created 2014-01-02 22:56:16
-------------------------------------------Mood: Yeay!!Life is so crazy and it never stops. I had four grown dogs and they had 8 pups. Then my baby was just born. Andres sebastian blandon. I love the name and his sweet eyes. I watch him smile as he looks up to the skies. nothing is ever dull or boring in my life. I have never known to stop, even when this life has shown me strife. I now pass through life as surfing on a wave. I love my God... my live he saved. ...Created 2013-09-02 01:10:03
-------------------------------------------Mood: Moo! 0.oMany tasks ahead, and lot of work to do. I started a travel business recently. It makes travel tours for places like Las Vegas, Canary Islands and Few other places for people that want to get away. its just starting and going good. I realized how God always gave me what I needed, but I was blind to see the things that he gave me. Talents and gifts and people. Now I give him thanks for all of it. Even my three dogs... A husky and sheperd and a bulldog. lol ...Created 2013-05-18 13:22:35
|Journal: In my head....|
-------------------------------------------Mood: Moo! 0.oWhats in my head? lol
Its amazing to have such a connection... lately everything has made sense. I dont plan and dont worry about the future. Freely live day to day... Officially retired from the military and going to school full time to be a network technician. Not what I planned to study but it just worked out. Ive been building more and more stuff around the house. I have fixed a couple of things like the windows and some of the running water. I built a deck, like a wooden chair that wraps around a tree on the backyard... I want to put some trees or flowers... Maybe a palm tree or a spiral pine tree. I continue to share the bible with others and its been great, Love and Obedience... Its so much simpler when we stop trying to control everything and just let God work things out.
Ill probably end up posting the first part of the book that I started to write...
One of many...
Coming soon ;)...Created 2013-05-17 01:36:02
|Journal: You see me...|
-------------------------------------------Mood: Moo! 0.oIts a breath of fresh air to see a message that is received and replied. I saw a part of a movie today... the movie is called "into the wild" A young man that leaves everything behind to find himself out in nature. From one part of the country he simply keeps moving ahead with the hopes of finding his place in nature. He met many people and came to share many things throughout his journey. With young and old, he spent time and helped as much as he could. When he finally reached the farthest place that he could, he was trapped and couldnt get back. It was then that he remembered everyone that meant something special to him. He realized that having reached his goal was not as important as sharing the time he shared with the people that had helped him get to his goal. He wrote "Happines is only real when is shared". My happines is not only mine. you helped to make it real :)
ilu...Created 2013-05-04 00:58:14
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