Mood: totally sad and losthow can you say goodbye to someone when your not there with them. in my grandfathers final hours i wont be there. i never got to spend as much time with him as i wanted to but i cant do anything about it now. i talked to him and told him that i loved him today and he responded with a thank you. he lost his mind and i dont know what to do about it. i feel that he will never know how much i care and wish i could be there. i dont know how to say goodbye i dont want to just come out and say goodbye i love you rest in peace. i dont think he even knows that he is fading. he doesnt know what is going on he thinks that he is going to leave the hospital and go home tomorrow. how the hell can i say goodbye without upsetting him. GRNADPA I LOVE YOU!!...Created 2009-07-08 21:52:47
Mood: Thinking... im a little lost right now in all the chaos that is my life. i know exactly how i got here but im not so sure on how to continue to pick up the pieces. i already started but i ran into a major road block. its really hard to clean up a mess when you dont know who you are..i guess im just feeling a little discouraged. today but there is always tomorrow. maybe if i stop thinking so much i will figure it out. usually the answer is right infront of my face, but i tend to look to deep into situations. ...Created 2009-05-19 18:16:54
Mood: Guess what!?hell yea! i got 60 days sober today!! my withdrawls are gone and i feel so good. i broke my habits and for once i feel free. if anyone ever wants to quit i think you should cause they way i feel i want everyone to feel it!! its awesome. i feel like i have control again. everything is with in my reach. life still gets me down but its all good beacuase i know i never have to use again. i can if i want to but i dont wanna be the girl i once was. she is dead. i buried her and now im free! yay me!!!...Created 2009-05-08 17:59:39
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