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    Mood: The Usual

    I tried to be positive but I am losing faith. Help me please. I wanted to see things go further than this.

    ...Created 2015-08-01 23:07:08

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    Mood: The Usual

    Right now I am tired. I have been getting up early and walking. It's wonderful. I feared the day it caught up with me. Maybe a cold cold glass of ice water will make me feel good again. Hard to say. Anything to make the time go by.

    ...Created 2015-07-17 13:12:31

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    Mood: The Usual

    Am I really still so fickle after all this time? My emotions are such vehicles for deception. Yet without them there is no description. Still I believe I could rely on character alone. I use to be stoic. Then Yahweh came into my life and made his presence known. I struggled with the idea of virgin birth, human diety. I asked Yahweh if this was something I needed to believe that it be shown. I can't explain how the voice of the almighty speaks to my soul, I cant prove with reason how it all makes sense. I read mere Christianity by cs Lewis and there were points if clarity that pleased my sense of frustration for lack of explaining how the holy trinity has become real to me, and yet even those words cannot explain what I know.

    So back to this problem. This human emotional trap I am in.

    ...Created 2015-07-14 12:21:26

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    Mood: The Usual

    The days,daze.
    Walls Stan over me and whisper things I can't hear. I think i am getting the general feeling.

    A screened in porch is wonderful for keeping out bugs or enjoying the shade, or bars. Another layer between me and outside.

    I grew up in the country, real woods,miles and miles away from convenience stores and even farther away from WalMart or fast food or malls or even parks. Just my remote imagination and air I could actually breath. And here in the city in this house after days and daze of staying home, years of these days, I feel as if I need to go see a river or a lake or some body of water where the waves are powerful and you cannot see beyond the horizon, somewhere that nature is so much greater than Man.

    ...Created 2015-07-11 12:03:25

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    Mood: in between

    open eyes to today, inviting me to many places unknown, I am involved, embraced, pulled into the day. The long day. The day is long. The length of time exaggerated by excess of hours, early morning hours, moments that challenge my sleepy eyes, comforting nothing. Nothing is wrong and nothing is impossible though my sense of self would argue, what sense does that make, rotten sense, confusing sense, chaotic lying half truth silver tongue devil may care sense of shouldn't be taking this, should have better.

    I am at war again, I wonder just how ling it takes to defeat the enemy if I know the enemy I must defeat is me? I don't mind too much to die. I've done it over and over I just sometimes lose faith in the power it has here specifically i don't believe in martyrs I reach out for something higher.

    ...Created 2015-07-10 07:55:40

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    Mood: The Usual

    I am dealing with the pain of my wisdom teeth Coming in on both sides top and bottom. As well my lady organs feel like they are being squeezed for juice like oranges or lemons. The beautiful miracle of child care has become a guilty cloud over my head as I feel inadequate to properly nurture. I do not desire to complain. Forgive me.

    ...Created 2015-07-06 10:52:46

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    Mood: The Usual

    The glorious atmosphere cooks up a tasteful storm. Lightning hits so close it shakes the house, yet, still miles away. The natural power in my life simply astounds me. The beauty of a morning washed out by rain.

    Milla my stepdaughter lovingly rocking my son Mikhael as I catch a cigarette break on the porch my husband is working on screening in. It is as sublime as I can imagine. She is five, my infant five months.

    This weekend is the fourth of July and we await my husband and her daddy to come home and take us to get fireworks and thumbtacks for me so I can hang up her artwork in her room.

    It is a good life.

    ...Created 2015-07-03 10:51:08

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    Mood: The Usual

    I never thought such simple routine would be so divine. I am so thankful.

    ...Created 2015-04-25 12:44:04

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    Mood: The Usual

    For once writing is not an afterthought.

    ...Created 2015-03-02 15:46:14

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    Mood: Thinking...

    Waiting, I am being made perfect, or he is.

    ...Created 2015-02-03 14:54:07

    Be kind, take a few minutes to review the hard work of others <3
    It means a lot to them, as it does to you.


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