Mood: DepressedIt's summer... but i'm feeling alone all the time.. sinking back into my old depression that i thought i had forever escaped. i dont like this at all. i just want someone to help me. save me. i cant do this by myself anymore....Created 2005-08-01 19:26:24
Mood: Thinking...Yay for being on xmas break. I finally wrote some new poems worth posting. I hope everyone is having a good holiday. I dont have time to say what I've been up to lately, but things are going pretty good. I hope to talk to some of you later on. Enjoy the holidays.
They will be gone before we know it....Created 2004-12-23 20:26:19
Journal: Living my dream -------------------------------------------
Mood: Thinking...Things have been going pretty well lately.. I'm extremely busy with everything.. but i enjoy it. I have the lead right now in a play that will be showing in downtown SA in January.. and I'm doing speech tournaments.. my next one is the first weekend in December.. it's going to be at UT in Austin.. which means I'll be missing a day of school and will be spending the night there.. that will be a lot of fun. Wish me luck... I need some more trophies. :) My birthday is coming up on november 30th.. i'm turning 16... right now I have no plans.. but i don't mind.. I'm used to people not remembering my birthday... but I'll remember.. and that's fun.. I guess. Yeah though.. I haven't written too much lately.. I only have a few things even worth posting.. I may put one of them up... sometime.. heh. I will admit that my busy schedule is leading me to fall back a little in school.. lowering my 97 average.. hah. Whatever.. atleast I'm happy. I'm happy. That feels so good to say. Talk to you later...Created 2004-11-26 17:50:29
Mood: Juggling TasksHey everyone.. Sorry I haven't been on forever.. I really shouldn't be on now because I'm in one of my classes at school... but oh well.. Things are going better for me.. I'm so busy I haven't found time to write anything new.. so I'm sorry that there haven't been any posts lately by me..I will talk to you guys later.. I'm really busy for the next 2 weeks.. but maybe after that I will start to get on here more often again. Adios....Created 2004-10-14 13:53:52
Mood: Yeay!!Mmm.... I'm in computer science class right now... I'm not sure if I'm allowed to be on the internet.. oh well :)
Yay. I'm a happy person now.... even though I haven't written any new poetry for weeks... I've just been too busy.. I go to school early for theater.. and I come home late for theater.. but it's a good feeling. It's nice to feel like I truly belong somewhere.
Don't get me wrong... school is still hard and time consuming... but now I have something to look forward too and I'm meeting so many great people... I can't wait until the first speech tournament.. it's in two and a half weeks. I already have one of my pieces memorized, but I still have two more that I need to get done. Hopefully I will write something new this weekend? I might have some time then... I think I'm going to go shopping with mel. That will be fun. I'll catch you later......Created 2004-09-09 12:01:41
Mood: Yeay!!Here I am... perfect as I'm ever gonna be...
Well.. things are starting to look better for me. School is better because I dropped two of my really hard classes... which makes me a much happier person. I haven't wrote much lately because I've actually been hanging out with people and not just my computer. I went to a concert yesterday and a movie the day before. That has to be some kind of record for my normally low social level.. let's hope I keep it that way... and I'm going to start doing speech tournaments again... thank god. I miss theater so much... I took too long of a break from it because my parents wanted me to stop (stupidfaces!)... but i'm doing it again.. screw them. :)
...Created 2004-08-29 17:18:35
Mood: DepressedI hate school.. I have no friends in my classes and no desire to meet new people. I know that if I meet someone I'll never get to see them because my parents force me into my room the second I get home and I don't come out for a LONG time... I sit in a corner doing hw from all the classes they signed me up for.. pre ap this and that... spanish 3.. when everyone else my age is only in spanish 2.. Make me give up a part in a play so I can be sure to make straight A's... but are perfect grades worth this complete emptiness? Is it worth crying every night when I realize academics is all I have and they will never let me have anything more? Welcome to my life....Created 2004-08-17 18:29:24
Mood: CrazyTomorrow is the 1st day of school... which puts me in mega spazz out mode.. wish me luck.. i'm not even a freshman this year but i'm scared as hell!...Created 2004-08-15 22:41:19
Mood: SadSomeone very dear to me passed away today... and I heard about it from the news. You never think that the news could be about someone you know.. it's always bad things about people you've never met... now I know that's not true. I feel bad for anyone that learns about the death of a loved on on television. It's really hard to deal with.....Created 2004-08-11 19:32:58
Mood: Yeay!!Whee! I'm back from vacation. :) I wrote lots of stuff, but I don't know how much of it I will put up. Right now I'm reading through emails and so forth. Talk to you later!...Created 2004-08-01 16:36:31
Journal: depression
