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    dotsJournal: dots
    Mood: The Usual

    (By Ken Mikolowski)

    can replace
    in my life
    and one day
    it will

    ...Created 2012-02-12 10:31:09

    dotsJournal: dots
    Mood: The Usual

    I feel like breaking or killing or laying in a dark room for a year.

    But a friend needs to be distracted from something so I'm going to a club instead, where strangers will look at me like meat.

    I hate this. I hate this. I hate this.

    ...Created 2012-02-10 15:58:08

    dotsJournal: dots
    Mood: The Usual

    Reading this again and again. Because god forbid I forget how minute I am:

    ...Created 2012-02-06 16:32:49

    dotsJournal: dots
    Mood: The Usual

    My current obsession:

    ...Created 2011-10-02 22:42:20

    dotsJournal: dots
    Mood: The Usual

    I am holding back, these days.
    Like a child I keep yearning for someone to write me a poem.
    Am I waiting for something? I am afraid, just a little, of the empty spaces my body is whelping.

    ...Created 2011-09-16 21:11:04

    dotsJournal: dots
    Mood: The Usual

    Things I keep in me:

    Look at me from all angles,
    I am a person composed entirely
    of a turned-away back.

    What shape is a heart? It is
    the roundness of shoulders,
    the scapula's heavy curve.

    I do not want. Full stop. Things
    happen to me, are done
    to me. Passively, I am defined. Passively,
    I am worn. Passively, I am soothed.

    I don't remember what desire means. I do not have
    the desire to remember.

    Long hours replace long hours. Nothing
    gets done. Long hours find me thinking
    of long hours, ad infinitum. I have come to know
    such a circling world. I have come to know
    the damning pressure.

    So it is that repetition suits me.

    I spend a great deal of time sleeping.
    Just that. Motionless, breathing
    only lightly. I clench my teeth
    till my jaw stiffens.

    And I wake up, again and again. I am
    always asleep. I am always
    waking up in order
    to sleep.

    ...Created 2010-09-04 21:45:57

    dotsJournal: dots
    Mood: The Usual

    I feel less that I am jumping off of things, and more that they never existed in the first place.

    ...Created 2010-08-30 17:31:25

    dotsJournal: Moroccodots
    Mood: The Usual

    For anyone who is interested--I have been posting my pictures from my time here in Morocco here:

    ...Created 2010-02-06 08:53:17

    dotsJournal: dots
    Mood: The Usual

    What words do you relate to most strongly?

    I am not asking what your spirit animal is or some such silly crap. Just what you find yourself attracted to.

    My list: wind, machinery, depths, hum, quiet, slant, dusk, hollow, moor.

    ...Created 2009-10-09 07:24:42

    dotsJournal: dots
    Mood: The Usual

    Things I am thinking:
    Emotions are not consensual.
    There is distance between us and ourselves.
    When people leave, bits remain inside us.
    And that is the worst thing of all.

    ...Created 2009-10-01 08:35:23

    Be kind, take a few minutes to review the hard work of others <3
    It means a lot to them, as it does to you.

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