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    dotsJournal: Where am I?dots
    Mood: Thinking...

    Hey Everyone who happens across this page still.
    I have moves~ (: Yes. Yes, I moved and sooo?

    Where do you find me?
    Come find me....

    ...Created 2010-08-29 16:56:28

    dotsJournal: Nothing.dots
    Mood: Overwhelmed

    You know I'm truly broken when music can't even calm my soul.
    It hurts so badly, it really does....
    It came out of no-where,
    That sting.
    My heart feels like collasping into itself.
    It's so damn horrible. I never felt this way,
    Never in my life nothing has hurt this bad....
    I can't even breathe right.
    Not even music is making me feel better.
    What's going on...?
    I'm so lost and confused.
    I just want to stab my chest repeatedly until the last breath is gone.
    I'm starting to shake.
    It's starting to burn,
    I can't cry,
    no matter how much my body wants to. There are no tears.

    I can't hear the music....The music to which I run to often for comfort.
    It's not there....
    Maybe it wasn't there in the first place.
    Whatever is hurting me, it better stop...
    It has to. Right...?
    I don't even want to sing...And it's a hobby I love to do when I'm alone. I'm pretty good, I think.
    I don't know to describe this...

    I guess:
    Have you ever had your feelings shut down completely...?
    For no reason might I add. Just out of the blue.
    No emotion. Maybe except for hate and anger. Maybe just a bit heartbroken....
    I don't know.

    All I know is that I've hit the lowest I've ever been.
    There's nothing.
    No Music,
    No Emotion,
    I'm kinda hungry right now, but, I don't want to eat.
    No Voice,
    No one listening.
    Echos of my own pain,
    My own anger and hurt.
    I don't have a clue what's going on anymore.
    Maybe someone can fix this...
    Though...I doubt it greatly.
    All I want to do right now....All I want to do,
    I just want to rip my eyes straight out of my damn head.
    Right now. Tear off the glasses, and dig my nails into my eye sockets and rip them out.

    Saika X.T. Ceria 'Emotionless Princess' "There's nothing anymore, nothing pure left inside my being..." 04/1/10 - 6:09pm [Central-US]

    Someone just kill me now.....I'd like that..

    ...Created 2010-04-01 18:11:54

    dotsJournal: dots
    Mood: Sleepy

    Slowly Falling for him.... I know I shouldn't but.... I'm so attracted to him.... He draws my heart in so dangerously. I know it might break again if I'm not careful. But.... Oh Dear..... It feels so good. It really does. It feels oh so good. But..... Allow me to kiss you again...It's all I ask for. ~So Close. It's Time to Run....

    ...Created 2010-03-29 14:23:40

    dotsJournal: :]dots
    Mood: Relaxing

    Where is my Voice....?
    Does it not matter anymore....?

    I can't hear anyone....
    Did I just go deaf?

    My eyes, sewn shut, Blind to what's in front of me.

    My Angel, put your hands on my eyes and heal me,
    allow me to see what I miss so dearly,

    Allow me to hear what I long for so deeply,
    Allow me to have a voice in which so I can speak clearly.

    Guide me in my passion to let my voice be heard,
    Let them hear the voice they all look over to easily.

    Guide my pen into an inspiration,
    A Melody....
    A Requiem....
    of my Sorrow....

    Fr: Xiallia - 2nd Profile/BackUp

    In Other News,
    Me Hases a New friend :D

    ...Created 2010-03-27 20:58:02

    dotsJournal: *scoffs*dots
    Mood: Stressed

    Junjou is actually a pretty ok Manga...
    *tosses it off to the side.*

    Twice in one day......Pissed the hell off.....I'm going to punch that bitch in school tomorrow, She better hope I don't see her fatass.

    *rolls her eyes, awaiting the floods of BS she'll get.*
    *grits her teeth again*

    It's all my fault...Like always, isn't it? All my damn fucking fault!!
    I hope I rot and's like I one would miss me,

    ...Created 2010-03-21 18:23:15

    dotsJournal: I wish....dots
    Mood: Sigh...


    ......If Only......

    ...Created 2010-03-19 08:26:16

    dotsJournal: *blinks* dots
    Mood: Thinking...

    :] Vash!!!

    ...Created 2010-03-15 00:12:24

    dotsJournal: I love you....dots
    Mood: Thinking...

    I don't care what you may say...

    I'm going to help you in anyway I can...
    You'll always be my Angel in my eyes, no matter what happens.
    I love you...
    You were there for me when no one else was....Thank you so much.
    Now, you know what....It's my turn....
    I'm going to help you...
    Even if I throw away half my life, I'll help you...I swear it...
    I promise...
    I promise.'re not completely mine anymore, I don't care.

    I love you, and I'll be there for you, just as you were me...

    Saika X.T. Ceria "It'll be worth it, to have you smile and laugh with me again" 3-14-10 5:24am[Central-US]

    ...Created 2010-03-14 05:26:27

    dotsJournal: I'm hungry...dots
    Mood: The Usual

    I need new poems too...

    ...Created 2010-03-13 19:38:51

    dotsJournal: dots
    Mood: The Usual

    This place really HAS changed.

    ...Created 2010-03-13 19:37:56

    Be kind, take a few minutes to review the hard work of others <3
    It means a lot to them, as it does to you.

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