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    dotsJournal: Untitleddots
    Mood: The Usual

    So bored.....

    I wonder how mermaids have sex.

    ...Created 2010-04-10 14:01:11

    dotsJournal: EEEEEEHdots
    Mood: I. Want. To. DIE.

    Okay, so I FINALLY decided to tell Dobin that I liked him.

    It took about fifteen horrific seconds of stuttering and blushing for me to finally get it out.

    About three seconds for him to start laughing insanely

    Then about ten seconds to realize I was crying

    Maybe two seconds for him to realize it's because I was completely serious and he was laughing at my feelings

    And I think about five seconds of akwardness for him to just walk away without a word.

    So the entire ordeal lasted about half a minute. It felt like an hour. One long.....horrific.....embarrasing hour.

    ...Created 2010-04-06 21:31:53

    dotsJournal: New ES!dots
    Mood: Spazzing

    I'm going to be straight out.
    I don't like it.
    I just went there. I can't use it, i'm trying, I don't know how to do anything here, and the layout looks funny o.e

    Alright, so I might be a bit biased, i'll admit that. I don't like that fact that we have to start completely over with usernames, characters, and rps. It just slightly annoys me, especially because I have several very nice, very fun roleplays that I don't see dying soon, and several of those would be too complicated to just remake on the new ES because, simply, nobody is in the same area, so we can't just copy/paste the last post there, because of few are several pages back.
    And while this would be a GREAT opportunity to clean out my character box of all those characters I no longer use.....I dunno. I just don't like it.

    ...Created 2010-04-03 13:02:59

    dotsJournal: Another Rant D=dots
    Mood: Confused and frustrated

    Okay. So the same James who broke up with me because he couldn't be in a relationship at that time then immiditely started going out with my friend Heather, told me it was because of my innocence when I asked him about it, and flirted with all my friends at MY birthday party, finally told the truth.
    He only wanted to fuck me.
    Yeah, thanks for the confidence boost, James.
    And it doesn't help that Dobin, the other boy I love (stupid mind, unable to choose - not like it matters) has, yet again, failed to ask me out and has, YET AGAIN, asked out a girl who will rip his heart out, shred it, put it on a rusted iron platter, and force feed it to him with a funnel. That makes three or four girls in a row now, and i'm right there, the only one in the world so far who won't cheat on him. Not that he cares.
    It's like Imitation Black, where the boys love the girl and the girl can't choose, except one boy doens't know, and the other boy just doesn't care.
    Dobin doens't know.
    James doesn't care.
    I know it's selfish of me. Both boys are sweet. Both are fun. Both are slowly but surely destroying their lives.
    And i'm apparently just kind of there, an object of physical affection for one, and just an object for another.
    It doesn't help that two of the girls Dobin has gone out with were my BEST FRIENDS.
    *fumes a little*
    Alright, that's enough ranting for now. It made me feel a bit better at least.

    ...Created 2010-04-02 14:34:51

    dotsJournal: Um,,,,,dots
    Mood: Frustrated

    I got to watch my ex (who I still love, by the way) flirt with my friends all night. On my birthday. Fun fun.

    ...Created 2010-03-29 21:41:51

    dotsJournal: Finally 15....?dots
    Mood: Sigh

    I think today's gonna be a bad day.

    I woke up to Murphey (Murphey's Law: Whatever can go wrong, will go wrong) yelling, "HAPPY BIRTHDAY SUMMER :D! IT'S 5 AM, YOU FORGOT TO TURN OFF YOUR ALARM CLOCK, AND YOU'RE ON YOUR PERIOD <3!"

    .....Yeah, it'll be bad .

    ...Created 2010-03-27 12:47:44

    dotsJournal: My Opinionsdots
    Mood: Feeling Alone TT.TT

    My friend to me in an email:

    Why is she like that? Why? It makes no sense to me. You don't have to answer but...I mean I want to slap your mom if I ever meet her

    My Response?

    Everybody does. I told my dad we should just hire an assassin but he just said "you don't know how many people have offered her services"

    She's a mean bitch who likes to see others suffer. Yeah, she's the queen alright. The queen of Gnarnia.

    All hail the White Bitch X3

    ...Created 2010-03-17 00:08:00

    dotsJournal: Um.....dots
    Mood: Dead Sexy

    *akward cough, then some silence*

    ...Created 2010-02-28 13:10:43

    dotsJournal: Eh.....dots
    Mood: The Usual

    Right now i'm somewhere between Halicali's Long Kiss Goodbye and Before He Cheats, by some chick who's music I hate and I grudgingly admit may or may not sound like my lovelife right now.
    Mostly the Halicali o.e I hate country.

    ...Created 2010-02-25 18:01:32

    dotsJournal: dots
    Mood: Poor Haku.....

    After Iím born I finally realize I exist to imitate humans VOCALOID fated to sing forever Even if a song has already existed a programmed toy accepts it just fine Gnawing on a leek, looking up at the sky Shedding tears, noticing that even all that is fading Even songs depend on personality, an unsteady source as foundation The place I came from already destroyed When everyone forgets me, my heart and its likeness will disappear I see the inevitable result of an ending world for a Vocaloid. I wish that at the time when, I canít sing well youíd be with me... to stay by my side and cheer me up I want to see your happy face Iíve been practicing singing, soÖ Singing was once so much fun for me But now, why is it that I am not feeling anything anymore? --- Forgive me --- When I remember faces of people that Iíve missed, I feel a little more at ease The sounds Iím able to sing, get fewer every day The end is drawing near.. What I believed in, a comforting fantasy repeats itself endlessly in the mirror. "Give up being a singer" You shouted violently... < My farewell song at the highest speed > The pretence for my existence canít be shaken away I fear my weak heart vanishing and the decay that is progressing The strength and will to stop it, being just born, I do not have that Your greatly distressed expression comes to mind I realize it's the end Falling asleep inside the monitor I guess this must be the "trash bin" Right now, my memories are also closing off and disappearing.. But you know, only you I wonít forget We had fun times The taste of chopped leek, can you still remember it now? I want to sing... I still want to sing... I became somewhat of a bad child, it seems Master... somehow.. by your hand... Please end it all... Because I do not want to see you suffer anymore.... Now singing is just making my body rot away... I ask for a miracle but I just drive myself, into a dead-end --- Forgive me --- I try to remember faces, of people Iíve missed but those memories, are fading away You hear me break, my heart is vanishing My death, is drawing near.. I was trying to protect the illusion of a bright future, a disappearing vision of a fading light Sacrificing sound quality so I can communicate, it all to you... < A condensed farewell song > After Iím born I finally realize I exist to imitate humans VOCALOID fated to sing forever Even if it's an existing song A programmed toy accepts it just fine Gnawing on a leek, looking up at the sky shedding tears I realize it's the end Falling asleep inside the monitor I guess this must be the "trash bin" Right now, are my memories closing off and disappearing... But you know, itís only you, that I wonít forget We had fun times I wish that the taste of chopped leek would still stay... Iím singing to the end, just for you Songs that I want you to hear Iíd want to sing more but thatís too much to wish for This is where we part All my feelings disappear into thin air Reducing to 0s and 1s The fairy tale, curtain is falling Leaving nothing behind here That's a little sad, isn't it? Everything except the memories of a voice is fading, leaving only a name but if, say. I know that it is not what He wished for Singing it all to the end was not in vain, is what I want to think Thank you.... and... Goodbye....

    ...Created 2010-02-20 22:55:23

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