Mood: Sniffle...so my brother learned the f word
now he wont stop using it
so the doctor was fun _eye roll_ I got some giant ass pills
read some stuff and tell me what you think
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http://lolamatic.deviantart.com/...Created 2008-02-05 16:35:51
Journal: IM MOVING MAYBE -------------------------------------------
Mood: The UsualI'M FUCKING MOVING TO CINCINNATI!!!!!
So I might be moving back to cincinnati. Well perfect timing, eh? I just got out of a relationship with someone I really liked there and one of the reasons we probably broke up was because I live tooooooo far away. that and other stuff. BUT WTF MAN THIS IS FUCKINF STUPID AS HELL
fuck man! Um so Mardi Gras Party at Amys tomorow night. Beads and Boobs lol So I guess the other party getting canceled made way for an even better party, At least at this one I have less chance of getting aressted. Fuck that shit. I can't spell and Parrot Bay makes me wana pee like bad but I'd rather type for you,<reader> I love you <reader> lol So theres this guy I was going to ask out today but I changed my mind at the last second cuz I realized how screwed up us dating would be lol so maybe I'll ask this other girl out. Who knows?.. anywaymonday is the 4th week of me being sigle and I need a change of scenery. and to make out becaue I have needs and someone should fullfill them. I can't do it all the time. Someone should inform selfish bastardette # 2 of this problem but wtf can they do about it if they are dating some screwball, right? so um I realize how long my journal is but oh no. It does not end here, fuck. that. shit. i feel like a submarine today. but the waters are to murky for me to find my way. i need to find captain morgan or crunch. they will save me, right? oh i got a job. im getting paid to babysit these two kids for 120 dollars a week. can you say car? i can spell it ;] pride whoa my catttttt sneezed gah that was silly of him. um so theres this hookah bar in clifton (cincinnati land) and I want someone to go in with me and smoke. The party that got "canceled" was supposed to have some and now Its "canceled" so whatever. I think I'll ask Amber or Cassie or something idk I'm full of random thoughts today. OOOOh i found 5 dollars on my dresser drawer today. I know, right? so this is the end of the longest journal ever!
...Created 2008-02-02 00:13:28
Mood: The UsualSingle Life has been grand. I forgot the freedom of it. Don't get me wrong Having someone is nice but its time to lay low and "observe" lol
I think I may be getting a job at rocca bar. That should be interesting. Its like a pizza place with a bar lol but I wont be serving alcohols. There are a bunch of people I know that work there. 2 or 3 I'd like to get to know better
I'll be in cincinnati till monday. Hit me up if you know the number. Msg for it if you want it
no creepy old people tho. oh ad If you want to go on a road trip this summer just let me know cuz I plan on not being home this summer. Im thinking Chicago, St Louis, maybe I'll check out New Jersey or somewhere else on the east coast. who fucking cares. Next summer me and Vanessa are hitting europe. I was going to go to japan but wont have made the money in time to make the deadline. But thats cool. I'll get there eventually.
More long journals. Whatever. Have a great weekend you guys.
...Created 2008-01-19 10:26:16
Mood: back flip...I mean flopToday I felt much better
Last night I almost asked my mom to take me to th hospital
For the last three days my body was in shock and I couldnt eat or anything
it was like it shut down all my functions
But dont worry Im ok now
I got an appetite and everything
My life is slowly coming back together
Im getting to go to cincinnati this weekend
Me and my 2 friends are getting toegther for an afternoon and the next day im being given a before and after make-over shot in a mary-kay book and Im getting paid! lol thats exciting. Im also going paintballing with my long time best friend. God I missed her. This week has made me realize how many good friends I have. They have been there for me in this difficult time and I'm very grateful.
But at the same time I am a little sad because a guyI used to go to school with is having his funeral today. We'll love and remember you Drew. And Stephen you better get better so you can get out of the hospital.
I've learned in the pass few days so many things but I feel that this moment of growth will forever change me. Somethings I will learn later in life. But whats life without learning?
Ive decided to take a little time to learn about and love me. Im growing out my hair and maybe I'll be changing to contacts. I dont know. But the future looks bright. And I'm taking it head on. Sorry this journal was so long but theres just so much to say.
...Created 2008-01-17 15:44:00
Mood: Sicktoday I tried to eat
its like my body is refusing to work
and all I can do is sit and watch me destroy me
Every second of the day I feel like I'm going to vomit
and I gag and nothing happens
Its so scary idk what to do
it feels like my body is giving up and Im scared
If anyone can help me with this it would be greatly appreciated
...Created 2008-01-16 17:18:39