she pulled away after a little while and smiled at him but she was shivering. she held onto him for support because she almost fell over. she eased her way to the floor and laid down smiling and giggling."seems like we could both teach each other something doc." she said with a sarcastic giggle she pulled him down next to her and turned towards him.

<we can continue this another a day>

"I feel emotion i just cant express it on my face Andrizel." He said and then kissed her back deeply it was the only emotion he could show. He kissed her long and hard as he felt himself just let go

"i can hear your pulse increase when i come near u and i can feel the heat or your blood increase as well. u are capable of feeling you've just given up. she walks towards him and cups his face then she kisses him long and gently. when she pulls away she smiles and says"no don't tell me u didn't feel that doctor derek. i know u did i felt ur heart race and u wanted to hold me. y do u question ur self

"Im incapable of showing emotions by blood stream prevents it." He said the toxins in his blood made emotion difficult to show it was like he was dark cold heartless. He was always serious so he acted the part.

she turned to face him again still a distance away."then why do u not show you're feelings, hiding them can be just as bad as surpressing them." she stared at him waiting for and answer

"I feel Andrizel. This is the most my cold heart has beated in ages." He said as he realized the bulge in his pants. He was heated. It was something new he swallowed once. He was in a different state of mind right now one he himself was not accustomed too.

she grabs his hands and holds them to her heart "my heart still beats it has not stopped and no that i can touch u it beats harder and faster" she puts a hand to his "ur heart still beats too do u feel nuthing?" the stops and steps away from him hangin her head

He looked at her now he had no choice. Still he didnt look straight at her. He avoided a direct gaze as he let her do what she wanted. He kept his hands at his sides as he just stood there no reaction at all.

she took a deep breath and gave she reached for his hand and felt the warmth rush thru her. that was too much now she wanted more she stood in front of him and stared him directly in the eyes. she would no budge and she still had his hand in hers

"Your fighting an urge it will lead to blood lust." He said as he didnt react to her. He felt her presence but didnt move. He was waiting carefully for her to stop fighting and give into it. To stop her human emotions for doing what they wanted to do what they longed to do.

she move even closer until she is right next to u."im not fighting because i want to im fightin it because i don't know what i am capable of? i don't know what this feeling is and it worries me.i know it is not to harm u but other than that i have no idea. i want to reach out and touch u for some reason. and this confuses me." she watches his face as he stares out the window wondering what his response will be.

"Lesson two, the more you fight the more your blood lust will take over. The easier it will be to lose control." He said as he still didnt look at her. He just wanted to watch the window. He knew her intentions and felt no threat from her. She knew he was toxic, and knew she couldnt feed off of him.

"ive been a around people before and i have never had this urge. soo far it is just u even when i was human i didn't have this urge. it is weird" she smiles and moves a little closer wanting to feel his warmth. wanting to reach out and touch his hand. she bites her lip trying to restrain. she takes a deep breath and then sighs

"I have a house keeper and im a doctor i get what i order. I am Dr. Derek Falconis." He said as he looked out the window still. He knew she wanted to touch him or get close to him. "Dont think about the urge and you will be fine to get close to people." He said still not looking at her.

"so how did u get the blood? how do u get ur beer and food?? u are a weird man but for some reason i trust u" she stands and moves towards u careful not to get to close because she is afraid the urge to touch u would come again. she looks at him and says "well we were never properly introduced ne ways.i am andrizel and u are?"

"Its not your kind or anything demonic that scare me. Human kind scares me." He said simply taking a drag and keeping his eyes out the window. He was an observer by nature he had seen it all death, destruction, chaos. all from his loft window. He swore he would never step foot outside these walls again.

"what is there to be afraid of outside this house. u can't die from vampires because of ur blood and u are decently built soo u can fight off pretty much me thing else that comes along." she stopped crying long enough to ask him this and to sit up as well. tears still streaming down her eyes she takes a deep breath and waits for a reply

He rose to his feet and walked to the window lighting a cigarette. "I didnt ask to be afraid of the world outside my front door but i am. For two years I have lived in solitude,." He said calmly as he looked out the window from his loft. He was insane for telling her but to ease her own fear he had to tell her of his own.

"i am willing to control it that is y i don't like being like this i want to be myself again." she walked away and layed on the couch pushing the pizza off. then she quietly started crying to her self."it isn't fair i didn't ask for this u know i don't like it at all. i don't like the transformations and i don't like the urges. it is horrible not that u would know but it is." she starts sobbing trying to hide it because she is embarrassed by it