-------------------------------------------Mood: The Usual
I'm not all obsessed with hollywood and glam and movies and pop culture and crap, but...
I was just thinking about how the relationship I'm in now is quite similar to the relationship between Sarah and Jareth in Labyrinth.
I'm quite like Sarah. I'm naive and attached to my own little fantasy world (it's not a fairy tale like hers, but a world fabricated to serve my own needs just as hers was for her). I take everything for granted, I'm selfish and demanding, and I make myself the victim when I can. "That's not fair!" I say a lot of stuff without thinking first, a lot of stuff I don't mean. I question everything and don't even bother to listen for the answer. I'm a child, I suppose.
And the other party, my boyfriend, he reminds me of Jareth, for sure. He is full of mystery and mischief. He can be cruel and kind in the same single gesture. He tries to give all the world to those he cares about, but his efforts often go unnoticed and underappreciated. He is misunderstood.
Our interactions are like theirs as well. He does exactly what I ask of him, and doesn't let me "take it back" when I decide it's "not really what I meant". He has to be mean because he loves me. And I walk all over him, ignoring what he does FOR me and turning everything into what he does TO me. I am attracted to him for inexplicable reasons, and he to me as well. I am unintentionally aloof and he deliberately aloof and we hurt each other and can't get enough of it. It's very bizarre.
I don't care too much to compare movies to real life because they're just stories. But this particular story is much more about humanity and love than it appears to be. I wonder how the filmmakers were able to portray these characters so well, in such a life-like way. Do many people experience love like this? Have I not noticed because I've been away on my own planet for so long? Or am I just reading more into it than there is? Maybe the characters are only superficial and I see what I want to see, right?
At the end of the film she decides she doesn't need him anymore. I'm not ready to make that decision yet. But will I ever be? How long can our relationship continue this way? Will either of us ever change? When it's over, we'll get over it. Just like we both have after every other failed relationship. And still I'm attached to this one. I want to keep it forever.
What the hell is wrong with me? Stupid female. Women shouldn't be allowed to think. This one shouldn't, anyway. I think too much, and too one-dimensionally.
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