Journal: Unity
-------------------------------------------Mood: No longer a part of it
Tell me, what exactly is unity? I find it is one of the most comforting things in the world. To be a part of something. To really be in a group. To be welcomed and loved and to return that same love. It's family. You don't need to like everyone in it, but you love them none the less. I belong to a group called Dagorhir that does fighting with fake weaponry. While the swords and shields we use are fake, the combat is not. People get hurt and it comes down to how good you are at fighting, not something like what level your character is. It isn't LARP. It's fighting. It's a game. Simple as that. In that group, there are what amounts to teams. I'm part of Rome. We're a family. A group of like minded individuals that would do anything for each other. I love them wholeheartedly and they love me back. I don't like all of them, but they are my family. That is how I felt about this place. Granted, I was never big on the poetry side, but that's because I'm not a big fan of poetry. I was a part of the roleplaying side. I joined several years back, when this place was still relatively new. The site was buggy as hell and not all that great, but what caught me was the community. It was small. Everyone seemed to know each other and that was intimidating. I didn't know what to do and simply read rps for the few days before I gathered the courage to join one. I found family there. They weren't put off by how poorly I wrote back then or how young I was at the time. This fourteen year old kid found a family in that endeavor. I found people that I could look up too. In the coming year, that family only grew. Certain people faded from my like int he roleplaying section while others were added. It was a living, breathing family, despite being separated by miles. Now, this nineteen year old, not old or experienced by any means, is looking at the place and finding the values that he once saw raped and left in shambles. There is no more family. There is no more unity. There is no greater whole, just a bunch of people who don't even seem to roleplay anymore. It's a sham. It's like realizing that the family you once had were killed years ago and the people you thought were them were the killers wearing their skin. It's a horrid and gut wrenching realization, to find out that the family you've been struggling so hard to maintain doesn't even exist anymore. Unity means being a part of something bigger than yourself and family means loving everyone else that's a part of it. Both of those are dead in the roleplaying section. Rest in peace.
...Created 2009-10-08 06:20:37 [ View Past Journals ] [ View as Blog ] |
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