-------------------------------------------Mood: The Usual
I have decided 2 things. One, I am going to stop worrying about every little thing involving peanut. Like the internet says all babies develope at their own pace, and he will hit the milestones he supposed to when he feels like it. I can't make him. So what I will do is enjoy him as much as I can. I will hug him and kiss him and hold him and keep him close to me as much as I can. 2nd I have decided I am going to become a better a friend and wife. I tend to ignore my friends and push them away. I don't know why I do it, but now I'm doing it to Tim. And it's not right, so I will do what is right from now on. I will go to my friends when I need help or have things on my mind. I won't be ashamed to ask for help and support and pretend to be strong all the time. I will not push my husband away and I will become closer to him. Heck maybe if I get closer with him he will start including me in his issues and stresses. It hurts my feelings that he doesn't include me in his daily issues and feelings. He worries so much about everything and doesn't tell me or include me. It makes me think I'm not worth telling, that my opinion and sppport aren't worth anything to him, so that's why he doesn't include me. I don't know maybe I'm being silly but I know a marriage is supposed to be a partnership and if both sides of the coin aren't communicating right then it will never be flipped right. What a weird phrase I just made lol. Well my beautiful, healthy baby boy is sleeping right next to me, and I love him so much.
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