Ok so, it seems to be a tradition of mine, to go back a year and look up the first journal in January.. In which I say I don't do any resolution, but still make some, and check whether I managed to live up to the ones of the previous year. Well now here it is, what I wrote on the second of
January, 2009:
"In cocnlusion,;;; I kinda failed living up to my resolutions. Nonetheless, I will try to make some new ones for 2009.
- Go to university in september. Even if I don't find out what I want. In that case, i'll go for psychology. Anything is better than continueing my current lifestyle, and I really need to move out.
- Work out some more. I bought a nice green skipping rope a few weeks ago and I intend on using it. I am also going to try to get back into running, if my knee allows me. And no, it's not because i want to lose weight. I just like working out and getting a runner's high.
- Finish poems when I start writing them. I dislike seeing all those half-written poems go to waste.
- Find a gf. Okay. I don't exactly mean it. Besides, crushes and relationships just happen.. You don't decide you want one, that just happens. I kinda repeated myself there. But, a gf would be ncie, let's keep it at that.
That's all I have to say on the 2nd day of 2009."
Well well. What is there to say? I can't say I completely failed!
Some Comments.
- Going to university in September; WIN! I found a study, intrnational communication & media, and it would be unlike me to not have any doubts, but so far it still seems to be a good choice. The study is not completely what I thought it would be like, but my classmates are pretty cool, and after all those are the ones I'm stuck with. Pretty much living the student life right now. I've loosened up a little, became more.. outgoing, so uhm yes. I live on my own now. I go out, drink beer, learned to appreciate wine [sipping a nice red wine as we speak,], and uh. I dance. sometimes on the bar. =')
- Working out more. FAIL/WIN. Unless a visit to the physiotherapist every week counts, I failed. I got one of those major injuries in January, which kinda ruined my plans. I did use that skipping rope tho, I was doing well with keeping up this resolution until I got injured. Anyway. I was unable to play basketball for about half of the year, but, for the WIN part: I joined the university team and we have 1,5 hour practice twice a week, quite intensively. I was kinda afraid for injuries and stuff, so I decided not to play in competition yet, but will do so as of now, second half of the season. Sadly though I have a minor ankle injury atm, but I hope this will be okay after a few weeks.
-Finish poems when I start writing them: FAIL. I hardly write, and when I do, I don't finish. I have started to write prose though. My prose is in Dutch, because after all, I still lack fluency and you'll realise how annoying it is to not be able to say what you want, when attempting to write in a different language.
-Find a gf: fail?win? I should be careful what to wish for. A big win is that I came out, to my family, to some more friends and well. just to people who matter to me. Unfortunately I messed with a girls heart last year by falling for another girl, who, was my gf for only a short while.. and.. Still annoys the hell out of me. She has never been completely honest with me, is not amazing, keeps finding ways to hurt me and has never heard of 'empathy', and still, I can't let her go. I'm not in love with her either. but there's something about her that makes me want to stay in touch, even though I have all reasons to dislike her. OH WELL.
In conclusion, I didn't do all that bad.
2009 has been quite eventful. It had downfalls. But Ive added some amazing memories too. Not the bestest of years, not the worst. I won't elaborate.
My new resolutions?
I don't know. I really haven't thought about any. But for traditions sake, I'll mention some points, so I will be able to look back, one year from now. Here it is:
-Be more open. Because.. I shouldnt keep everything to myself.
- pass my first year at uni
- becoming more active on ES again
- travel somewhere.
Well. I can't think of anything else. I mean. If I have resolutions, I don't need the first of January to start with them.
And of course, I wish all of you a hapy new year
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