Wow... Well, I have to say a few things... First, as always, an amazing write. There's no question there. The emotions always ring true when you write. As poem wise, I like the whole thng. Only line I really don't like is the forget, cold sweat one. It doesn't flow as well right there...?? Otherwise it's powerful.
Now from a personal aspect, one thing really bothers me... and perhaps it goes back to our phone conversation and some of things I said. But the line about 15 years being long enough to forget and dry the tears... No... you should never forget, not that any of us could. And you're memories and pain are, like I said, completely different then mine, but it's never a matter of forgetting. Let's hope none of us do. I do however worry about how much it still grips you. And again, that probably lies with what you saw.
It's apparent from your writing, this and many other poems that it is clearly etched in your mind, very vivadly. And who am I to say it's too vivad after so many years? And like someone mentioned above, time does heal, it just takes different amounts of time for everyone.
All I can say is keep writing. It's always been an out for us. I hope somday you can find the peace and rest easy. That one day the nightmares won't grip you like they do now.