Journal: early day -------------------------------------------
very tired... my son always wakes up at 7AM... my mind isn't quite functioning yet... and as usual gonig to be a hectic day... my husband got laid off and they may be taking away his school aid... it's been a ruff week... it will be alright though
Thank you for your comment and favorite on my poem Everything ^-^
I enjoyed reading your comment, and I must firstly thank you for taking the time to read and comment it! :3
And second, I am glad you liked it, and the poem Everything I just wrote down the first line from my head, and from there, it was naturally written.
It looked good, so I did not want to change the way I wrote it, and I wrote it exactly the same as I did here ^-^
Again, thank you very very much, and I hope to see you in the near future :3
im trying to cheer up its only been 85 days of being sober so its still really hard. i had to start writing poetry to let my emotions because i have never had to deal with them before. i guess i am human i have feelings and i hate it. i usually just drank or smoked to deal with all of them. whether they were good or bad anything was a good reason to get high. im glad that you got cleaned up i like hearing about other people getting sober it gives me motivation and encouragment to keep it up myself..thanks you
dicovering reality is about all the blackouts i had over the years from all the drinking. i often sit and try to retrace the events that took place and fill in the holes. it makes me feel sick not knowing what i did or how i ended up in a situtaion that i didnt want to be in. when you get down to the part where i talk about the world being pulled beneath my feet and treading the waters of fear and decite, thats when i finally realized that i had to quit and face and own up to my problem and all the pain and damage i brought upon myself and the ones i cared about. basically me facing the reality i created for myself with the poor decisions i made in the past. my past kills me. i dont like thinking about it but not knowing is even worse.
thank you. most of my work is really personal. there are a few that i kinda just wrote for hell of it. you should read trapped or discovering reality. i think you might like them. thanks for your comments i really appreciate you taking the time to read my stuff...have a beautiful day!!
hey thanks for the comment. that was hella hard for me to post becuase i didnt want people know how bad i really messed up my life. glad you liked it tho and could relate. your the first person to leave me a comment and it made me feel alot better for putting that up on my page...thanks again. take care