|Journal: desperate call|
-------------------------------------------Mood: needing help
My emotions are over flowing my heart. I can't stand to breath and not breath in his air i'm so close to him and latley we've been ripped apart. My boy friend/ fiance has been gone visting his real dad for about 3 months in arizona, thats about 3,000 miles away from me (I'm in north carolina) but this distance Isn't anything compared to how much I love him. The distance is just in my head. We're very much in love and I'm so happy to have him. I trust him and he trusts me. This Isn't that puppy love I used to write about. On the twentyfifthth of august will be eleven months we've been dating and I'm very happy and excited. Just one thing his family doesn't like me. I've changed so much now. I've matured very much. I'm going to be a senior while he's a junior and I have a job, car, liscense, and can depend on myself. I just wish they would understand how much we care for eachother. Please I need advice. I follow my heart but I want to hear opinions. His mom doesn't like me because she found out we had sex is what I was told but she tells me that she's going to help me but I find out she doesn't so I don't understand that. His step dad met me twice and he liked me but now I don't know what I did. He say's that I'm a bad influence on the kids that I'm racist. Ok honestly the only thing I'm racist against is jews sorry but truthfully I am. I can't stand them at all! Anyways but I've never said anything rasict infront of them. I told the step dads mom(my boy froend's grandmother) the truth that I don't like jews. I'm not gona lie to her and I'm gona be opend. She hates me too. The step dad said that if me and my boyfriend didnt break up he'd divorce my boy friend's mom. We didn't break up but he's been gone. He comes back in a few days and I'm scared that all this wonderfullness is going to come to an end. And I don't want it to so please I'm reaching out for help. HELP ME PLEASE!!!
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