I don't actually think I've done shit for this site in the last few years - other than not leave it.
What i like about it, competitive bastard that i am, is you can think you are the shit then every now and then someone will log on and you go through some of their work or browse a favourites list and find stuff that's really good... i like that.
If i know i haven't done shit I'm certainly not criticizing you
or anyone else for that matter, what I am saying is it's often hard to write when there's a lot of noise, logic leap- it's quiet here, if you have something to say or express
there's opportunity to get after it.
Donald Bradman was a famous cricketer- he averaged about 100 runs per test innings v all other countries...
The next best average yrs and yrs and yrs later might be 60. The dude grew up in the sticks so he would pitch himself the ball (a stone actually) with one hand and hit it with a stick the width of a broom handle with the other.
Point is -he used that isolation- he developed an extraordinary eye.
In a lot of ways, here, i feel like gandalf the grey, fell down chasm with the belrog, no telling when I'll get out, and no rush on that either, but when i do get out you can bet your ass what im writing is going to be every bit as white.
That's good. Life brings its joys and it deals its hard hands, it would be useful to be able to express things.
My short term advice is seek out lori tab or someone like that and build a coalition, like attracts like.
And don't be afraid to try somewhere else, it might very well be good for you.
Sorry about the hard hands, they are, they are tough.