Is my head on straight? Am I wearing a hat? Did I remember to lock the door and turn off the coffee machine?
I'm captivated by images. A friend just called and told me a secret, sent over some pictures and I was... overwhelmed. Can't even remember that day. A boat, too many drinks, too many secrets, just like in Sneakers.
My mind is pretty clear, but i'm tired and need sleep.
The days go by, I feel so many things but can't seem to get them into sentences anybody would understand. Why does communication need to be in words? Why can't I just send out those electro magnetic thoughts, and make it all comprehensible?
I might have been wrong. I might have thought too long and talked too fast. Please... just come and get me. Anybody...
The night feels lonely when you need that soothing emotion. I'm afraid I'll screw everything up if I go outside my shell. Make a call. Talk...
The apartement is quiet, not a single noise except the noise in my overwhelmed head.
It's hard hearing that somebody loves you. Especially when it's the wrong person... Timing is everything, and my timing seems to be off lately.
I'd like to say I loved you too, but I didn't. I'd like to say you're ok, but you're not. I'd love to feel that love is easy and it comes along like cabs, but it doesn't.
That's why I tell you it's ok. Ok, I'll try the friendship thing. Ok, I'll say the summer was great. But to be truthful I'd erase it in a minute. I just don't care. Not today...
Another world. I don't like it, it makes me choke....
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