craig, everyone on my stalk list is a genuine writer and a decent sort.
[censored], es is a trip, how did so much of my life get up on these pages and how do things get so messed up? but, it's only life, you know? you grab at what's important. and that's important.
because i really would miss your words and because often times your words have meant so much to me, getting something it had been so important for me to get out.
for me, i like what you put out, i don't think that it's replicable. you're capable of pretty amazing stuff. and that's what i've liked to watch, and what i've grown to look for / anticipate.
maybe, who knows,
i never do from one day to the next.
the point of the ludus page was to say something that needed to be seen and be said, and i really didn't intend to be talking to anyone. maybe i come back as db in a day, in a week or six months,
and then i think i could talk to you and to keith, and i think i could manage that quite nicely without [censored] it up.
the thing about you and keith is i reckon you are genuine blokes, as happy to bunch up a fist as you would be to sit down and have a beer with a bloke and there is a realness about that, that comes through in your comment and it's always been something i've appreciated.
anyway, there's some blither for your page, to say you weren't here and were missed and that i'm sorry things have me bugging out.
life is not a total clusterfuck, i get hired on on monday, so that's part of the rebuild for the dissolution of a poet type bloke. and to be close to the kids is gold standard.