As the tite of this suggests, I've been thinking over a great many things, mostly involving this site. Since I've joined the role playing community over 4 years ago, I've made many frinds, a few enemies, and even those I probably considered rivals (those of you that have known me for more than three years who I'm talking about). Looking back, I've had many fond memories of this place and some of the stories that have been crafted in the role playing section have even given me ideas for projects I've started outside of this site. Bad memories aside, the ultimate reaon I've stayed this long when many of the people I looked up to as mentors and peers have all but moved on, has been the group closest to me that I consider like a second family.
I know you're going to get mad at me for reading this instead of telling you in person, but with the gaps that are there of when we are on, I feel this is the only way. You've always been like a bright star for me. Whenever I felt down in the past, your antic and randomness seemed to cheer me up. The memories I have of you are irreplaceable in a way. While the recent event with Urisen did seem a bit out there, I did not object because you were happy, and ultimately, that is what I wanted the most for you.
While I feel as though I've known you a long time, I know it's only been about a year or so. I still remember the tight spot I got in because of the complications with Disa, but in the end, thoe issues were worked out and you became a more permanent part of my ES life. While it seems you don't have much confidence in your abilities as a role player, I can tell you have a unique gift for story telling that is only masked by not focusing on minor details. Even though that remains, it was still an honor to have met you, and the stories that you have helped me with and vise versa, were truely good, even if they didn't seem that way.
I can still remember my first encounter with you. You were still new to the site and weren't well known. You seemed like the kind of person who wanted company, but at the same time, it didn't seem like you wanted to or felt like asking for it. Because of the few events I won't go into detail because of the details that followed, you became my third wife and I do not regret having met you.
To all three of my wives together:
While there are times I've refered to you all by numbered positions, all three of you are special to me and nothing will ever change that in me. I know that, in the end, what I write here will seem harsh, but please, know that I will always think of you and that I know all of you have a way to contact me.
One of my oldest firends on this site and probably my first family member here, you have always been like a sister to me. There are times when I recall the role plays we were in together and how much fun they were, but it seems that you were the fist to truely drift away without intent of returning.
To the rest of my brood:
Ketsu: While my sister's aprentice, I feel as though we did bond a little as a father and son should. If you so choose, what's left of the Kasumo legacy is yours if you so wish it. However, I've rarely seen you as of late, so your chances of reading this are slim.
Imaginth: As my oldest daughter and one of the firet people I considered a friend on this site, the most outstanding memory I have was giving you away at your ES wedding. I've always been there when you needed me, be it for a role play, or someone who will listen. I hope that someday I'll be able to role play with yo once more.
Kayame: You were truly a handful. You fought with beth every now and then. You'd get hot tempered over what seemed like trivial things to me, I've even disowned you a couple of times. But no matter what I've said in the past, I've always viewed you as a daughter, albeit a rebelious one.
Emi: Part of my latest brood to satisfy Nikki, who wanted a bigger family, you and Kass often sparked small fights over something the other had said. While it bothered me as a parent in a way, after helping both Imaginth and Kayame, I gues I was use to the ruckus.
Kass: Having seen your creative talents and ability to sketch, I know you'll make a fine artist if you feel that's what you wish to do. While I know I may not seem like a steady parent figure with this, please know that I truely did accept you and Emi into my family.
Silver: Whle my meeting you was truely breif, and you actions displeased me. Nikki would pester me endlessly until I accepted you into the family. Dispite the choice to associate with people to hte point Joel tried to be firendly with me of all people, you are still a part of the Kasumo clan, albeit a distant part ot me.
And this brings me to why I've written this. I feel that my time spent here has been both fruitful and wasteful. As of late, the two role plays I have been a part of, one I had made and one I had been asked to join, have both falllen into neglect. I feel that part of it i because I have been distancing myself slowly from the site, only logging on long enough to check on these two role plays and maybe one or two others, staying only if a family member or a friend was on. I feel that this won't work out well in the end, hence why I've decided, after this week cones to a close, I'll give my silent farwells to you all now, for you probably won't be on when I leave. Please know that I don't do this because I'm tired of you all. I'm doing this because I feel I've truely spent enough time as a member of this site and that it's time for me to move on. I won't forget any of you, and I will probably come back on a day I feel nostalgia calling me here. Until that day happens, Please stay happy, all of you.
...Created 2010-02-15 00:51:49 [ View Past Journals ] [ View as Blog ]