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Journal: Room Eleven -------------------------------------------Mood: Too much at once...    Leave them all outside today Let them all laugh, it's OK They'll think you hide Now is not the time to play You lost something Just start looking It's another rainy day... for you Another rainy day in the sun Please don't avoid gravity Let it pull you down Don't waste your time laughing it off Or try to unfold that frown Rainy day in the sun Rainy day Another rainy day for you Another rainy day in the sun They say they're young, Wild and free While their castles collapse in the sea It's not what it seems Let them all be You'll soon find yellow and white When you're done with blue days Coming out of it takes a little while You'll know when I need rainy days I need rainy days I need rainy days Even in the sun www.youtube.com/watch?v=1v8klvEt2CY ...Created 2009-11-08 11:37:52     [ View Past Journals ] [ View as Blog ]

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Made me think of you Natalie Merchant- Kind and Generous

| Posted on 2009-11-19 14:20:17 | by nikita2u - [ Reply to This ] -

Sad attempt to warm your hands up o.o

| Posted on 2009-11-18 13:04:49 | by nikita2u - [ Reply to This ] -

| Posted on 2009-11-18 13:02:39 | by nikita2u - [ Reply to This ] -

You know there is a thin line to walk, from normalcy - to freak -. It gets to the point that to be normal we all must act think explain and be the same. But there is that certain part of us, that part that we keep from others, as in thoughts ideas just basic to complex types of emotions that ranges in each person. That part of us is considered 'freakish' and so we all wear the mask of normalcy in front of friends and family. while deep inside, that one place where we feel truly at home, is the bane of ourselves as well. We're taught to hate that portion of ourselves. So that our mask becomes our true self...does this make any sense? well it does to me and I guess I'm trying to work it out by talking with...well to your page really. In your previous journal, you've captured my attention, well more so, about who you were trying to speak to. You're really one big ass puzzle, and I honestly don't care if a few pieces are missing. For the parts that you've shown me, I adore each and every little jagged edge. anyway your journal actually reminds me of something I wrote long ago (and hopefully ES has deleted it by now xD) and it really has me wondering about your thoughts. Though it's not easy asking you what you are thinking. but hell everyone has their wall, some more so than others, but all the same we hide things, even if they're small and unimportant to others, but mean the world to us...ionno maybe some huge part of you haves to be hidden from all of those who say they(and I) care just for the sake of sanity. Cause seriously Urisen, what if everyone who ever said they loved you or cared about you meant it? without you doubting them for an instant. What if you never questioned their intentions or their ability to feel something for you? What would you do with yourself then? Hell you'd probably be bored with happiness at some point. Honestly it gets to you after awhile. Meh. Hey, can you remember a time, when you had that one moment, however short of happiness? Where maybe for just a second something happened that caused you to smile and forget about work, about being tired, about your family...just some small part of your day that you looked on without doubting those around you, without contemplating a lonely life and death...I mean...just one? I'm honestly curious to know this =3 I'm almost brave enough to ask you a bunch of silly questions just so I can say that I know you a little more better. Though trust me I'm inserting them secretly >.> <.< you just don't know it. but honey through all my fake happiness bull[censored] I can say I've had those moments. Fleeting or even prolonged moments of happiness. Sometimes without reason. Other times they do have a reason, but I'm not going to tell you them. There are things a person needs to keep to themselves for self preservation and to stop from being hurt on accident =3 I'm tired, work was great. I had fun and learned how to do some POS/Customer Service shin dig. I had my 30 day review for work today. that was nice. I might as well let you go now before I uttly spill my guts out to you on such a public place either way it wouldn't be pretty then this happy lil girl you know so much might change in your mindset =3 with love, best wishes, and Great Cheesyness, Nikki (Nicole, Taco, Kiki, Pink Burrito ect.)

| Posted on 2009-11-06 14:26:09 | by nikita2u - [ Reply to This ] -

I wish to apologize for how I just left that day of our conversation on AIM. My net was shut down and just recently got turned back on. I feel horrible for just leaving you like that and I hope you can forgive me. I had no other way to contact anyone since I left. blah I'm so so sorry and I hope you're okay and and -nuzzles- and and and yes I've missed you horribly and wow I say and to much. Please please please forgive my rudness. with love, Nikki

| Posted on 2009-10-27 23:40:49 | by nikita2u - [ Reply to This ] -

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