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    Journal: ...
    Mood: Bored
    I blast the music into my brain, oh yes, until it bleeds. It sure does hurt, but pleasurable when you're alone.

    Trying to look for someone to talk to, and when my one comfort came, oh, how excited I could be. Just like a little girl gets excited over an ice cream. But, soon that ice cream was 'borrowed' a little while, and only came back when it almost finished. So, basically, no one was available for me.

    Could it be wish come true? I just want to be alone, so that I wouldn't be worrying about other things but myself. Yea, it's the fear again. The fear I nurtured unnoticed. The fear of losing, having and gaining. How pathetic I could be...

    I was given a choice that wasn't a choice at all. Nor shall sacrifice be the word of it. It was something that... as in when I get this, I will lose that; or lose both to make it even.

    Maybe I've been given too much, or maybe I'm just asking for too much, Or maybe I gave too much... I don' t know... I'm the kind of girl who could do anything for anyone, but never know what to do for herself. I know how to stand for someone, to help someone stand tall... but never to myself. Now, what on earth am I though... Just sad to know..

    I can't write at the moment. My mind couldn't stop talking at me. Words... beautiful words it used, but doesn't allow me to use them over the paper. How sad...

    I don't required self-pity. I don't even need one. I don't even know what I want. It is so breathless. I want to die yet I couldn't step away from the air. There's still a reason for me to live. No, I don't live for someone; but for that someone, I'd live. Even it means I will have nothing if I chose to stay with him, I wouldn't mind at all; for I had nothing from the start. So, he's my one and only comfort and treasure.

    Oh, well... since no one's available around here and there, I think it's time for me to retreat into the dark... will wait until someone turn on the light.......................... whenever someone needs me again.


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    just read your journal i hope you are alright.
    | Posted on 2007-08-28 21:40:36 | by deluka - [ Reply to This ] -

    Thank You for the lovely comment.I'm happy to see you enjoyed my poem.And you were blasting your tunes while reading it

    | Posted on 2007-08-28 21:29:58 | by deluka - [ Reply to This ] -
    Hey I want you to check out my new duet and give me a bit feedback on it. Its called Always With You
    | Posted on 2007-08-27 03:52:46 | by Crestfallenman - [ Reply to This ] -
    No problem on the comment on I pray. It was very very touching and I'm glad I was one of the people to read it. Those words were truely from the heart.
    | Posted on 2007-08-21 15:34:40 | by Crestfallenman - [ Reply to This ] -
    Hey, I apprechiate that you liked my Dissecting Fantasy write, and you liked it enough to leave that comment and the favorites. I really apprechiate that you have an open mind to stuff. I suppose that write was a bit of a turn on to you? Lol, jk, but if it is that's cool. I wrote this and was took awhile to write this, because I wanted to be an original writer that wrote about those of the deranged minds. I'm sure if you keep on reading my writes, you'll see more of graphic and depicted writes, that would offend most, but intrest few. I'm glad you are the few.
    | Posted on 2007-08-21 15:32:51 | by Crestfallenman - [ Reply to This ] -
    thanks for the comment on "sound like a plea to anyone?" learning your thoughts after reading was really nice.
    i hope your writing is going well; i wouldn't mind seeing some new pieces of yours.
    | Posted on 2007-08-08 16:47:03 | by explosions - [ Reply to This ] -

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