Journal: focus
-------------------------------------------Mood: Sigh...
in ‘back to methuselah’, bernard shaw says: ‘adam invented murder, birth and death and all negative conditions.’
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my son would not quiet for an hour tonight.
“one more cuddle mum” (after cuddles, threats, juice, crocodile-stroking-forehead-activities...).
“then lie down and i will cuddle you”.
“no, like this”, standing with arms outstretched.
“mummy feels cranky william and so this will be the last one!”
i take him in my arms. i feel inadequate to give him the affection he seeks, but make my body go through the motions.
he pulls back, sits up in my arms, face right-close to mine and tells me that he loves me. he caresses my hair with his small hands and tells me that i am beautiful and funny. he gives me kisses. he tells me that i have pretty hair. he is so serious and tender and calm and i am -
quiet.
he has quieted me.
“are you teaching me something will?”
he laughs and shakes his head, no.
and he kisses me again and whispers soft words; strokes my hair some more.
and he goes down as if he had held on to waking just to show me:
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change your focus and your world changes…
...Created 2008-09-07 10:23:00 [ View Past Journals ] [ View as Blog ] |
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