I think it is time for me to leave.
It's difficult for me to place my finger on just one reason why I feel the need to go, but I'll flatter myself by trying to offer some explanation. I no longer enjoy myself while perusing this site. I try to look at "recent posts," but they're all crap. I read them, and my mind interprets the words as, "blahblahblah." That's not fun. I first came in order to try to get myself writing again, and instead, now there's even less point in writing than ever before. I am beginning to realize the futility of trying to create something that tries to make someone feel a certain way. I'm sick and tired of having people tell me the crap I've written is really good and the stuff I've worked the hardest on is crap. And what does it say when there are pieces that eleven people have commented on and no one has gleaned the one sentence explanation from, yet when I show the same piece to someone who doesn't know squat about poetry, they're able to see it immediately?
And then there's the fact that I simply care too much. I try not too, but I care too much about having a good "comment ratio." I care too much when I try to comment on what someone else has written, even though I know they couldn't care less what I have to say. So for that reason I really really need to quit checking this site so often.
If I'm stalking you, I'll still comment on stuff you submit, but none of you submit stuff often anyhow, so it shouldn't be too hard. And for the very few of you who have actually had something worthwhile to say, thank you, really. Thanks to you, I'm waiting a bit before deleting everything, as I want to take note of comments that have been made.
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