-------------------------------------------Mood: WOO HOOOOOO
I just realized looking back at all of my work about how naive I was. I've never really understood just how immature I was, yet so mature at the same time....lol isn't that an oxymoron....a mature teenager?
I've done a lot of growing up in four years. There's been a lot of fighting...a lot of loving, and a lot of getting to know myself.
I'm stronger than I was before....I don't let guys get me down anymore, even the ones who break my heart. Yes as everyone will notice, my boyfriend in the military decided that he didn't want me anymore....it's ok though because I'm not ready to spend the rest of my life with someone. I'm not done just being young yet. There's so much of the world I want to see before I get the idea of settling down.
Instead of going to Charleston...I'll be heading down to Portland...to make a fresh start once again...with the help of my friends, who are undeniably great in every way.
To simply put it...I've been mature for way too long...I've lost my childhood to my obsession with wanting to be treated like an adult. I took myself too seriously and got myself into more trouble than I ever could have imagined.
It's time to loosen up a bit and just be me. I can't be afraid to be myself anymore. I need some fun....some adventure, and some new stories.
I'm so ready to embrace my inner self...let people know who I really am, and not care when they don't like me.
I'm silly, goofy, clumsy, quiet and loudly obnoxious when I want to be. I love my music, and I love to dance (terribly I might add).
It's time to grow up and face the music finally. GIVE UP ON IMAGES!
If I could give advice to anybody....NEVER LET ANYBODY GET YOU DOWN, it gives them the upper hand, and that's not fair....you control your own life.
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