Journal: Life
-------------------------------------------Mood: Thinking...
I’m feeling a little overwhelmed tonight and I just thought I’d write it out. It has been so long since I’ve actually wrote anything on here and it feels a little weird. I don’t know who still looks at my page but if you do, thanks.
School starts Monday. I went to the dorm today to get my key and all of my anxieties about living there just rushed back to me. I absolutely love my roommate. She is my best friend and my Big Sister in more than one way. But, I despise the hall. I don’t like that most of the others living there are really loud and obnoxious either. People are just so inconsiderate. I also wish I knew who our suitemates were going to be. I really hope they are nice and do not mess up our shared bathroom. And I really hope they aren’t loud like our last ones.
I wish I was out of school already. I have spent the last 15 years in school. I can’t wait for these next few years of school to be over with. I want a family and a career already.
So, I guess I need to stop with the negative aspects of college and focus on the positive. I am so different from who I was on orientation day two years ago Monday. That’s right; my freshman orientation in ‘06 was the 25th of August and is the first day of classes this year. Why is that so special you wonder? Well, because that was the day I met the love of my life. :) Now, at the time I had absolutely no idea why my heart skipped a beat when he walked into the room, but the following February it all made sense. Love has made me a better person. It has also made me feel so much joy for life and I can't wait to see what the future holds. I feel extremely blessed to be in love with my best friend. :)
College also gave me my Chi Omega sisters. I know that each one of them is in my life for a reason and I am so glad that I joined. Granted, dealing with a bunch of girls is not always drama-free, but I love each of them for their uniqueness. I am very thankful to have them all in my life and forever be connected through Chi Omega. I just love them to pieces!
I have also gained more leadership experience through college than I could’ve ever imagined. I believe I would still be the same shy high school student hiding behind a bunch of bracelets, necklaces, and black T-shirts if it weren’t for the leadership opportunities offered to me.
And, let’s face it; I’m a geek at heart so I actually do love learning. Now, the papers I have to write I don’t like very much, but I have to take the bad with the good. And there you have it. My revelation at 2 in the morning: I’m taking all the anxieties about school with all the joys of school.
Wow, I really do feel better after writing all this down. Maybe I’ll try this again. :)
Bethany
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