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Name: Hannah box
ASL: 21/F/Michigan
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And years later

Mood: Confused
  
...I've grown up. I started this page when I was so much younger. I feel like an entirely different person. I was such a fucked up young girl. Now I'm a fucked up adult woman. Lol. It's amazing to me how much of my younger selfs problems still exist today. I still have an extremely difficult time trusting anyone, and everytime I let down my walls I get crushed. I let men rule my life, my emotions. My boyfriend whom I thought was my knight in shining armor has turned out to be a wolf in sheeps clothing. Just when I think I've caught a break and will finally have some happiness, it ends up being just a tease. The happiness gets completely twisted into pain, which is made even more distinct because of the happiness that came before it. I don't know who I am anymore. I'm indecisive to the point where it's absurd. I feel like I need a break from life to figure out who I am and what I want. I'm afraid of never changing, of going through life absolutely clueless about where I stand.

I know I love him. Absolutely and irrevocably. I don't think I should. Love is a form of control to me now. I feel like I shouldn't let myself love him this much, because if I do, I'll have no strength against him.

I'm so lost.


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 I Hate to Love You
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 Existing Just to Forget
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 Nefarious Devotion
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 This Ghost
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 Have I Awoken?
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 Wistful Death
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 Nothingness
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 Smile of a Dead Child
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 Please, Pray For Me
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 Drowning
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 Perfection
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::Cutting or Mutilation : Class : Poetry :
 I Can Feel You Watching me
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 Falling Short of Everything
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 Can't Block The Screams
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 Broken Family
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 My Dark Corner
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 Illusions Of Me
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 Fallen Angels Silouhette
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I couldn't comment on ur lovely poetry.
Hope everything is O.K. w/u
take care
much love
| Posted on 2007-10-15 21:32:40 | by bilal anaim - [ Reply to This ] -
  
HANNAH! yes, obviously it's you-know-who. mr. evil incarnate and bearer of all things not so...you know good. or something. well anyway i've been snooping around for you lately. i want you to know that i've changed. a lot. i understand if that's hard for you to believe, but go here and learn more: http://myspace.com/necr0tastic


all i want is to get back in contact with you again, you've been on my mind a lot...
| Posted on 2007-08-27 14:04:58 | by Marc Premo - [ Reply to This ] -



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