Journal: juries
-------------------------------------------Mood: freaking out beyond comprehension
The life of a high school arts magnet student unfortunately consists of a depressing little trhing we like to call Juries. It's basically our mid-term/final exam for our Art. Okay, it may seem really simple but being an artist (yes, that includes us musicians, and dancers, and actors) is so much more complicated than one who isn't would know. And i'm not talking about performing because getting onstage and doing is by FAR the easiest part; It's the learning process that makes you want to blow something up. And when you have to perform for 5 grades in front of 5 judges you think you're going to go crazy if you don't have everything perfect, which we never -as our own worst critic- feel we do. I have my juries today and i have to perform 3 songs; One in French (easy, since i'm french), another in Italian (also alright because i live in miami, ie- i know spanish, which is close to Italian, which is prettier), and then the last in German, which makes me want to gouge someone's eye out. I'm on the verge of vomitting and crying right now cause my juries are in about 3 and a half hours and i just practiced for an hour and a half straight, periodly stopping to scream at myself for not being good enough. Thanks to the screaming my body no longer wishes to comply with my need to practice; My palet is stuck because of a sudden congestion (even though i'm not sick). I'm going to get my first B on a jury today and i don't know how I'm going to react to that. :( this REALLY bites...
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