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    Today has been okay so far. When you are use to having someone around, it can be really hard to go back to having no one. The loniliness settles into your very bones and thats a hard feeling to shake off. Sometimes I just don't know what to do.

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    | Posted on 2011-03-01 04:30:15 | by Katlord - [ Reply to This ] -
    :P I think it'll be awesome I'm really excited about it.
    | Posted on 2010-12-25 22:33:05 | by Katlord - [ Reply to This ] -
    Yeah their both boys @_@ everyone just laughs and says "good luck with that" or " you poor thing" when I tell them lol.
    | Posted on 2010-12-13 18:36:43 | by Katlord - [ Reply to This ] -
    I've been doing pretty well. Ran off, got married, have twin boys on the way. It's kinda exciting.
    | Posted on 2010-11-29 16:32:40 | by Katlord - [ Reply to This ] -
    Hey how you been?
    | Posted on 2010-11-18 19:27:57 | by Katlord - [ Reply to This ] -
    You're right, you will get that a lot of very free thinking (liberal type), people; whether it is from this site or as your buying cereal at the store. Since I live in ultra liberal/democratic nation (NYC) I'm surrounded by people who love to give me all there opinions on how the war is this that and another. When they are finished with their rant, and I tell them it makes me feel a little bit better knowing I served ten years protecting their right as a citizen so they can trash what I and many did, the look of utter embarrassment keeps the smile on my face. I guess my point is, what your husband is going through very few could even fathom what it's like, especially for a cause that changes and is most time vague. We just do what we have to at that time. But, while its hard for us "over there", the good soldiers know that the spouse he/she left behind is working their fingers to the bone to keep the home and life they left to go fight, the same way for when they get back to the open arms. We my not act like it sometimes (guys are inherently dumb mostly), but we know how hard it is to upkeep a life with a smile when you want to frown, live your life, his life, kids lives and outside friends lives with only half of your brain working 24 hrs. The other half of your brain is reserved for the space needed to think about your husband. Not an easy task, but do-able.

    Just putting this out there : people are jerks for the most part. There are the times to confide and console fellow peers (army wives club), but there is also the need to be around good friends that are not at all involved with anything that you are dealing with. Third party friends you might have just meet. These people are great because they do not have anything invested other than maybe neighborhood BBQ functions or social drink nights. Yes, you would have to put up a filter in real life to filter out the ones that would only waste your time, providing negative feedback toward you and/or husband, but they (the good ones ) are out there. Personally I make it a point to be aware and completely open to the thousands new to the world of the military. It's never quite as bad as it seems, trust me!!

    Take care and again good luck!!


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